psychosis

mandarin class

2007-10-25T17:26:00.000-07:00

im in mandarin class right now. super mario kept me up last night. so now im sleepy and frustrated cos i couldnt go past level 2. 不公平！！！

whooo. 我跟老師已經練習好了。學中文很難過！不要了！我們的老師常常叫我。我不知道他為什麼不要較別的學生。

on other stuff, i have pe and accounting today. can you say BOOOORING?? I HATEEE ACCOUNTING. pe's okay cos we can get away with not doing anything.

midterms week's coming up. guess who's about to fail statistics, accounting, and transportation engineering? grar. demmit.

on the news today (from inquirer and cnn):
1. Arroyo pardons Estrada --philippine politics at its finest. tss.
2. PAL plane overshoots runway --goodluck to liuxueshengmen. tsk.
3. more china-made toys with lead --bubble economy, anyone?
4. singapore airline's A380 completes first flight --goodbye boeing. boeing already announced a delay in the completion of its Dreamliner
5. US slaps new sanctions on Iran --will bush ever get tired of powertripping?

ill blog some more later. :)
laterz.

just another thursday

2007-10-25T01:09:00.000-07:00

i didnt go to mandarin class today. haha. was too sleepy :P statistics was boring, transportation was the same. same old, same old. guess who's getting tired of waking up to the same thing day after day? screw taiwaaaan. i haaate it.

back to blogger :)

2007-10-24T11:36:00.000-07:00

at least for tonight. :)

i miss blogging here. its been almost a year since i last posted. ive been flooding multiply though. :P ive been really concerned about my privacy the past year. too much hmmm.. excess baggage in my life then.:P

everything's okay now though. :) it just keeps on getting better. :)

ive never been this in love and i never thought id actually study engineering. [two completely different things, i know. :P]

school's still a bitch. :P i have engineering subjects plus statistics and math. hello ~~singko~~ uhh, 0? i dont know what grade you get if you fail here. that reminds me, i miss UP. my friends are graduating. deemmiiit.

i have stat class tomorrow. so do me a favor and kill me now. graaawr.

xoxo :)

im back :)

2006-12-08T07:52:00.000-08:00

il try to update this blog...,.

just coz i dont have anything else to do.

BUT...

you can always visit

THIS

just in case i forget to update this blog. :D

im alive!!!

2006-06-06T07:41:00.000-07:00

im back... but not for good.

awwwwwww..

sad

2005-12-27T23:47:00.000-08:00

im so sad. i dont know why. oh wait, i know, but im not really okay with sharing it.

basta.

im going through this phase again...

and i want it to end.

going out

2005-12-26T21:35:00.000-08:00

i still havent watched memoirs. :( boohoo.

we were supposed to watch memoirs after tita bebot's wedding last friday but we ended up going to malate instead. it was me, diane, liz, ate kaye, bea, matt d, matt r, mark d, mark m, andrew, ed, kuya mark, and julio. we left the hotel at a little past 11 and first went to pier one. ugh. that place sucks. and since most of us didnt want to stay there we went to malate. haha, the funniest thing happened:

kuya mark david and kuya mark marigomen asking the "receptionist" about the crowd in common ground...

kuya mark d: miss, madami na bang tao sa loob?
girl: oo.
kuya mark d: puno na?
girl: hindi naman, kasi 500 ung capacity ng common ground. eh hindi pa naman abot ng 500 ung nasa loob.
kuya mark d: may mauupuan pa?
girl: oo naman.
kuya mark: maganda ung crowd:
girl: yup. there are a lot of girls inside.
*the girl looks at kuya mark marigomen*
girl: and a lot of boys too.
kuya mark m: what the hell are you telling me that for?!
hahahaha!!

ayun. haha. it was soooo funny. then we went inside and had drinks and danced a whole lot. we left at a little past 3am and brought bea back to astoria then back to edsa shang. we stayed in the lobby and hung out for like 20 minutes or so. la lang, kwentuhan lang. hahaa. we bonded over a lot of simple and corny stuff. hehe. then my mom told kuya mark d to tell me to go to the room to sleep na cos it was so late (errr, early pala. early morning. hahahaa). so i did. kuya mark, kuya jeff, matthew d, kuya ed, liz, and diane went home. the rest of us stayed in the hotel. i woke up at around 7 or 8 cos mom was so noisy on the phone. we had breakfast with tita gina's family and tita marlo's family, tita susan and the marigomen kids. after that, julio and i watched over the datu kids in the swimming pool until tito melo came. i went back to our room to take a bath and pack up. we went home afterwards.

christmas day: it SUCKED. it was so lonely. we just slept when we got to don galo. on our way to fairview, dad was crying cos he missed mama a lot. mom and i were trying not to cry. we called seattle and got to talk to pa ge and gevgev. they just got back from the hospital. when we got to fairview, the oldies played mahjong and us kids played word factory. after dinner the ate kaye, ate tin, and andrew taught kuya jeff and i how to play mahjong!! oh its so fun!! i wanna play it all the time!! hahaha!!

yesterday until this morning: i woke up at 1pm, had lunch, went online, took a bath and dressed up. kuya mark, kuya allan, julio, and i went to shang to have dinner and meet up with the marigomens, matthew r and andrew, and bea. we went to decades in metrowalk to drink and dance. *again*. the boys left us to spot chicks outside and guess who they met- denise joaquin and her friend, juzi. ive always thought she was really pretty and a good actress. so we invited them to join us, they said they'd follow and so we went back to decades. after 30 minutes or so, they joined us. we were drinking and dancing and having so much fun! denise and juzi were so nice, and juzi is from UP also. at around 2:30, the lights went out and it was pretty scary so we decided to leave. but the fucking bouncers wouldnt let anyone out cos they werent sure who has paid or not, people were pushing already and we were demanding that they let us out then we settle who has paid or not outside cos it was a fire hazard. eventually the waiter told the bouncer that we were paid and that we could leave. the ones after us had to go through the same shit, the bouncer was so rude he was even cursing one customer. i mean, what kind of service do they have!?! fuck tlga. we went home afterwards.

so there. right now im in front of the computer. bored as always.

fblog

2005-12-24T06:52:00.001-08:00

fucking shit, the world has ended.

i made a friendster blog.

cos you gotta love animal crackers.

woohooo!!!

fblog

2005-12-24T06:52:00.000-08:00

fucking shit, the world has ended.

i made a friendster blog.

cos you gotta love animal crackers.

woohooo!!!

xmas

2005-12-24T05:15:00.000-08:00

xmas is less than 3 hours away, and i still dont feel it.

and just so you know, thats a bad thing. cos i love christmas! :(

oh well.

still, eventhough our purchasing power is so low now that in a matter of years it would be nonexistent, we should still be thankful that we are alive.

God works in mysterious ways. sometimes you fall so hard, but when youve fallen down, theres no other way to go but up. and God sees to it that we do become better persons in the end.

why am i saying this?

cos mama nene's surgery wasnt as successful as we hoped it would be. there's still half of the tumor left on her brain cos it was too solid. theyre gonna have their noche buena in the hospital. it would seem that mama is so unlucky, right? but when you think about it, its quite the opposite. mama and papa migrated to the states just april of this year, and it was so sudden, then two months ago it was discovered that she has a brain tumor. just this month mama and papa were able to get financial assistance from the govt for 6 months, covering her medical expenses and living expenses, too. and kuyang and ate cham were able to leave manila and arrive in seattle just in time for the surgery. just imagine if they were still here, we wouldve used up all our money and it still wouldnt be enough to take care of her. it really boils down to how you see things. for some, her sickness is the whole picture. but for us, her family, its God doing His thing, making sure everything worked out in the end.

merry christmas to everyone. :) dont forget to thank Him for the gifts of life, family, and friends.

nyt nyt. :)

pics from last night can be found here:
click this.

e-card

2005-12-21T20:36:00.000-08:00

i sent an e-card to everyone in my address book so go check your mails!!! :)

happy holidays!! :)

xmas

2005-12-21T19:17:00.000-08:00

im here in my dad's office cos its their (western) xmas party. tuesday was pal maritime's xmas party. sometimes i wonder why i give a lot of effort to these two companies, when my dad gives more than enough effort already. i certainly dont have plans of taking over after i graduate. sometimes i feel that these two companies, esp. western, are my siblings too. i dont know, maybe its cos my dad worked really hard to have these two companies that whenever i "work" for any of the two, i feel like im not even "working" anymore cos its like just one of my responsibilities as my dad's kid. COO nga ako eh. child of owner. hahaha!:) im overworked and underpaid. no wait, im not even paid at all! haha! gago un si daddy ha, inaabuso ako. haha. ive been kidding all the people at western that i should be in their payroll already for all the things ive been doing for the company. hahaha. during western's 1st anniversary at edsa shang last nov 11, i had to make a presentation about western and until that afternoon i was still doing it cos dad's business partners from greece wanted me to add more pictures. i was stressed to the fullest, but you know, when i saw my dad on stage, it was all worth it. i was so proud of my dad. mind you, it wasnt an easy start for him. they werent rich and he wasnt able to graduate college. at the age of 17 he was already working, and he slowly rose from the ranks. he was able to give all of us the best kind of life. im so proud of my daddy. :)

btw, tomorrow is tita bebot's and tito jojo's 25th wedding anniversary. we'll be staying at edsa shang again tomorrow night until saturday so i wont be able to goonline. boohoo. my cousins and i are gonna watch memoirs of a geisha after the wedding tomorrow night. cant wait!!!:)

merry christmas to all!:)

hhh

2005-12-21T05:47:00.000-08:00

that is what separates people like me from people like you. people like you sit on your asses and talk about it. people like me do something about it.

-hhh

who says you cant learn anything from WWE/tv?!

crush

2005-12-18T18:52:00.000-08:00

i have a crush!!!=D

shopping

2005-12-17T05:01:00.000-08:00

is christmas that near already?! i havent started my christmas shopping yet. i dont even feel christmas-y yet. grabe na talaga ang ekonomiya. shit, dati 5k ang pang xmas shopping ko, ngayon 2500 na lang, at card kung hindi madedecline. hindi na lang ako nagreklamo kay mommy nung binigay nya sakin, pero lamo un?! sheeeetttt!!!!!!!!!! lumiit na nga ung amount, nagsimahalan pa ung mga bilihin. kainis talaga. nagpagas kami kanina, ung 1000, 27.65 liters na lang. samantalang dati eh umabot pa ng 30+ liters yan. 2 weeks ago, pina-gas-an ko ung crv, 1000 tpos card na lang. tapos nakita ko sa receipt ung amount ng tax, halos 100php. arghhh!!! eh di sana kung wala yang vat na bwisit na yan edi 900 na lang binayad namin. kainis!!!

so un nga, xmas party ng Barangay Always (barkada ng dad ko since childhood) para sa mga poor kids sa place nila sa don galo. syempre tumulong kami nila kuya sa arrangements and sa party mismo. kami ni matthew ung assigned sa registration, tapos may mga "bouncers" na nagpapaayos sa mga kids habang pumipila sila. nakakainis ung mga nanay ng iba, hindi na pumipila nagagalit pa dahil hindi namin sila binibigyan ng stub. kaya nga CHILDREN'S CHRISTMAS PARTY dba?! i mean, kawawa naman ung mga bata na nandoon at pumipila tapos sisingitan lang nung mga nanay na un, hindi pa dala ung mga anak nila. kainis tlga. juiceko, ang gulo, parang riot. si kuyang allan first time ko nakitang sumigaw. syempre namayat nanaman ang wallet nila daddy, at pagod nanaman kami, pero in the end it was all worth it. kahit wala man lang nagthank you kahit isa sa 350+ na batang andun, isama nyo pa ang mga nanay at kung ano man nila, eh sige na lang. hindi naman namin 'to ginawa para sa thank you eh. pero syempre, parang pampalubagloob na din un. pero dahil wla, sige na lang. alangan namang pilitin namin silang magthank you eh baka nga naman hindi sila thankful. pero basta, pagod na ako!!!!!!!!!!!!

hindi pa ako nakakapagsimbang gabi. hahaha. wala lang. :D

gusto ko na manood ng memoirs of a geisha!!! i love that book!!!:D ive read it around 7-8 times, and im reading it again! hahaha! pero ang labo kasi sa movie, chinese halos lahat ung mga actors. parang nagreklamo pa nga ung ibang hapon dahil dun eh. pero dba, ang weird. parang ung sa Anna and the King, dahil sa buddhist movie sya, hindi pumayag ung Thailand na dun un ishoot kaya sa malaysia na lang ata or somewhere.

o sya sya, im beat!!! sobrang kapagod. gnayt to everyone!!!:D

btw, Ken Shamrock is on TV. :D i still love him tho its been years since he left WWE. hay. hahaha. pero tanda na nya eh. oh well.

oyasoumi nasai!!=) mwahmwahmwah.=)

or2005

2005-12-15T02:59:00.000-08:00

OBLATION RUN 2005
theme: freedom of expression

the oblation:
a man with arms wide-stretched and face facing up, symbolizing selfless offering of one's self to his country. (wikipedia)

the Oblation, a symbolism of what a UP student should be:
selfless, ready to give up one's self for honor, truth, justice, a servant to humanity and to country.

The completely nude (the fig leaf was added to the nude figure upon suggestion of President Jorge Bocobo) figure of a young man with outstretched arms and open hands, with tilted head, closed eyes and parted lips murmuring a prayer, with breast forward in the act of offering himself, is my interpretation of the sublime stanza. It symbolizes all the unknown heroes who fell during the night. The statue stands on a rustic base, a stylized rugged shape of the Philippine archipelago, lined with big and small hard rocks, each and everyone of which represents an island. (http://www.angelfire.com/pro/conserve/sos/facts.doc)

the Oblation Run:
the Oblation Run started during the Marcos Era when a movie entitled, "hubad na bayani (naked hero)" was not allowed to be shown. an APO fratman was among the actors, and so, the fraternity decided to hold its own film showing. however, the ticket sales were very low that they had to think of a "gimmick". after much brainstorming, they decided to have two brods run naked to promote the said film. since then, the Oblation Run has symbolized freedom, each year with a different theme, a different reason for "baring it all".

to me and other spectators, the Oblation Run may just be a group of fratmen running naked, but in reality, its more than that. those dudes running naked symbolize the UP student- fearless, brave, free.

lola

2005-12-15T02:31:00.000-08:00

my lola's here!!!=)

xmas list

2005-12-14T23:26:00.000-08:00

my xmas list:

1. nine west bagS
2. a good movie (dvd/vcd format)
3. a good book (preferably by a pinoy author)
4. sleep
5. gtech pt3
6. more and more tsinelas!! ayoko ng havaianas sayang sa pera pero kung regalo naman okay lang!hahahaha!
7. family time
8. a dvd copy of the tribute to Eddie Guerrero
survivor series nga pala ngayon...
9. twenty love songs and a song of despair by Pablo Neruda. :)
10. cd ng eraserheads. kung pwdeng sila na lang, mas maganda.
11. ang notebook ko nung 1st year hs na puro tula na hindi ko na alam kung nasaan.
12. shopping spree sa divisoria!!ang saya!!
13. suki's car. hahahah!! asa!!
14. political and economic stability. kung pwde lang talaga.
15. may makadiscover ng sobrang daming oil or alternative sources of energy para hindi masyadong mahirap ang epekto ng peak oil sa darating na panahon.
16. purple ixus digicam. nyahaha. gusto ko purple!!!
17. sa totoo lang? gusto ko magshopping ng magshopping hanggang sa paguwi ko eh makatulog na lang ako sa sobrang pagod. rustans!rustans!rustans!
18. porcelain doll pa din. yey!kahit di na ako makakaalis, may door-to-door naman!nyahahah!!
19. IKAW.

oblation run kanina, hahaha! what an experience!! lantern parade tomorrow pero hindi na ako papasok. katamad eh. xmas party ng office ni mommy dito sa bahay tomorrow. tutulong na lang ako dito. haha. expired na ang sun ko today. sucks. haha. pero okay lang, at least may reason na akong hindi magreply to certain people.tss.

from now on, im changing the way i blog. hindi na lang puro tungkol sakin, ang boring nun. gusto ko naman ung may matutunan ung readers (meron ba?!).

nga pala...

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...okay na sana kung hindi lang JANUARY 2 2006 ang resume ng classes namin at wala kaming tests/exams. pero meron eh. so goodbye vacation!!! kung sa monday naman ako aalis at jan4 ang balik, mamimiss ko pa din ang isang test sa isang prof at hindi ko makakasama ang mom ko, so bat pa?! so bahala na.

merry christmas to all!=) 10 days to go!=)

ponsy

2005-12-12T23:57:00.000-08:00

youre so not my favorite prof anymore.

o wag magfeeling.

hindi lang ikaw ang prof sa mundo.

pbb

2005-12-10T08:32:00.000-08:00

the big night just finished

Nene won!!!

speech

2005-12-09T23:12:00.000-08:00

yesterday was our ds100's alternative classroom experience (ACLE). our group had to make bookmarks out of recycled materials with quotes from gandhi. grabe. all i can say is WOW. it was really tiring, april stayed here the other night and we werent able to sleep. i was assigned to deliver the closing remarks and i didnt have an idea how i was gonna make it. it was supposed to be in filipino but since i suck in filipino, i asked sir ponsaran if i could just do it in english and he said i could, and so i did. hahaha! i did it during the presentation so i wasnt able to pay attention to all of it. but i loved the presentation of zara's group about social realism and the renditions of the songs "tatsulok", and "rosas ng digma". i absolutely loved the poster about women empowerment by mawi, quincy, and maita. the poems were about transnational mining, mcdonaldized society, vfa, and the culture of poverty. basta, sobrang saya and worth it. :) grabe, i even called sir ponsaran just "ponsaran" in front of everyone and it was utterly humiliating.

here's my closing remarks:

good afternoon everyone.

Mahatma Gandhi once said, "Man is the maker of his own destiny, and I therefore ask you to become makers of your own destiny."

In this day and age when fatalism is no longer an option, each and everyone of us is encouraged to take action. Activism is not limited to rallies, pickets, and the like. Activism is advocating, making, and fighting for change. I believe that this Alternative Learning Classroom Experience is one of those many venues for advocating change. While it is a break from the monotony of class discussions, it is even more an eye-opener to socio, economic, and political usses. I hope that this practice would continue to deepen our consciousness on the society of which we are part of.

After having witnessed all the presentations regarding povert, injustice, gender bias, social equality, etc., we must ask ourselves, "what should we do about it?"

Just like what Gandhi also said, "Action for one's self binds,while action for the sake of others delivers them from bondage."

Thank you and good afternoon once again.

ds100

2005-12-08T17:54:00.000-08:00

its 9:56 am and im in school. i havent started writing my closing remarks for the acle later. why?? cos i havent fucking slept yet. dahil sa ds100. hay. its a good thing this is worth it.

seattle

2005-12-06T21:49:00.000-08:00

ive been surfing for possible flights to seattle and those of eva air are full while those on northwest are a bit expensive. crappingshit. (a shit crapping?is that even possible?). im still checking if i can still use my worldperks in northwest to get a cheaper ticket. i soooooo wanna spend christmas in seattle.

the disneyland hotel(s) in hk are fully booked. (i think). boohoo.

elections

2005-12-05T04:21:00.000-08:00

should i or should i not?

that IS the question.

sick

2005-11-29T05:27:00.001-08:00

ugh. ive been sick for three days now. imagine needing to hold on to a tissue paper just so you can prevent some icky stuff to come out of your nose. ganon ako ngayon. plus ngongo. =(

school has been tremendously fun. im sick cos of it, not of it. i havent had a decent night's sleep since the sem started. everynight its either im reading my handouts (in a span of four to five meetings, our DS100 handouts is more or less 150-200 pages na ata. and all HARD. boohoo), or actually digesting whats on our handouts. the lectures arent less difficult either. at least today we didnt meet cos we attended this symposium about indigenous people and the philippine mining act of '95. its a familiar topic cos that was my study for komII last year. after the sympo sr ponsaran gave our assignment for the next meeting...

look for 2-3 quotable quotes about the following concepts. be sure to cite your set of references:

a.economic nationalism
b.development anthropology
c.state capitalism
d.feminization of poverty
e.national patrimony
f.social stratification
g.appropriate technology
h.gandhian economics
i.partisan scholarship
j.globalization of poverty
k.modernization of the society
l.internationalization of the division of labor
m.human capital
n.neocolonialism
o.ecofeminism

whew. ive got a few days left before mass suicide. hahaha. i love the toxicity though, its all worth it. i love learning stuff like these, i love learning from Sr. Ponsaran. i love the pressure. i love the toxicity. i love the experience.

ive got psych101 tomorrow. 3 hours straight. =(. and microeconomics the next day...

hay.

btw, this peak oil phenomenon is really scaring the hell outta me.

miharu sent me a postcard!!=) awww. im sending her dried mangoes and lotsa filipino stuff.

oyasoumi nasai. ki o tsuke kudasai.

guys, please do pray for my mama nene. her surgery is on the 20th. please do pray for her.

im sleepy. ill blog about the sympo some other time.

adios!

sick

2005-11-29T05:27:00.000-08:00

ugh. ive been sick for three days now. imagine needing to hold on to a tissue paper just so you can prevent some icky stuff to come out of your nose. ganon ako ngayon. plus ngongo. =(

school has been tremendously fun. im sick cos of it, not of it. i havent had a decent night's sleep since the sem started. everynight its either im reading my handouts (in a span of four to five meetings, our DS100 handouts is more or less 150-200 pages na ata. and all HARD. boohoo), or actually digesting whats on our handouts. the lectures arent less difficult either. at least today we didnt meet cos we attended this symposium about indigenous people and the philippine mining act of '95. its a familiar topic cos that was my study for komII last year. after the sympo sr ponsaran gave our assignment for the next meeting...

look for 2-3 quotable quotes about the following concepts. be sure to cite your set of references:

a.economic nationalism
b.development anthropology
c.state capitalism
d.feminization of poverty
e.national patrimony
f.social stratification
g.appropriate technology
h.gandhian economics
i.partisan scholarship
j.globalization of poverty
k.modernization of the society
l.internationalization of the division of labor
m.human capital
n.neocolonialism
o.ecofeminism

whew. ive got a few days left before mass suicide. hahaha. i love the toxicity though, its all worth it. i love learning stuff like these, i love learning from Sr. Ponsaran. i love the pressure. i love the toxicity. i love the experience.

ive got psych101 tomorrow. 3 hours straight. =(. and microeconomics the next day...

hay.

btw, this peak oil phenomenon is really scaring the hell outta me.

miharu sent me a postcard!!=) awwww. im writing her and sending her dried mangoes!!! whooohoo.

gnayt. ki o tsuke kudasai. oyasoumi nasai.

aaron

2005-11-24T00:12:00.000-08:00

he's a singer and a guitarist.

OMG.

martir.

2005-11-23T04:10:00.000-08:00

why did i ever let you go?
is it too late to let you know?

i tried to run from your side
but each place i hide
only reminds me of you.

busy

2005-11-20T02:24:00.001-08:00

its been a week since i last blogged. ugh. im always in a crappy mood cos i dont get enough sleep anymore. as in tipong 3 hours max. and i hate it. last night was jean's parteeeyy!! gave her havaianas.. and since i wasnt able to get a gift for anna for her bday last week, i gave her havanaias na lang din. i was so obvious when i was buying it cos i didnt know their size so we were on the phone and i was picking the colors and asking for their sizes. basta, na obvious ni jean. oh well. i still hope they love it. :) i finally bought havaianas. fyi, ive been wanting to for ages, its just that i really find it impractical and crazy to spend 600+ bucks on flip flops. i bought a pair of purple flipflops and purple sandals. syempre purple dapat. of course i didnt use cash. haha. you gotta love visa. :D so back to havaianas, now that i have two pairs of it, i gotta say its really not worth 600+ for the flip flops and 1000+ for the sandals. they dont fit well. ang luwag sobra. sayang sa pera. i just hope anna and jean think differently. haha. besides, i dont really like dressing down. i love heels. so back to nine west, kenneth cole, and etienne aigner. grabe, sayang tlga ung pera sa havaianas.

about school, i lost my form5 so i cant change math1 to natsci8 so ima just drop it. and im stuck with gomez for econ102(microecon). i have abaya for polisci14, fajella for psych101, vitriolo for socio101, and ponsaran for ds100.

devstud100 is great, we had a recitation and quiz right away. i passed! 3/10! haha. thats the highest already. garabeh. we have 8 assignments. uh_oh.

can anyone help me with these:
1. matrix on development myths and reality
2. reaction paper about the talk of Sec. Ricardo Saludo
3. Recitation (globalization, sustainable devt, devt theories, etc.)
4. people oriented global rural devt. framework (from sr ponsaran's blog)
5. rethinking development by Roland Simbulan, MPA
6. research 5 definitions of development from different ideological and political lines)
7. familiarize self with all ds subjects and corresponding course descriptions
8. prepare set of questions for the upcoming symposium sponsored by takder and katribu on the contradiction of patrimony and the mining act of 1995.

whew. ayoko na.

basta, at least i had fun last night at jean's party. still, being with tipol people reminds me of high school. hay. its still pretty hard seeing remnants of your past and not being able to do anything about it. if i were stronger, then perhaps i could pucker up the courage to do something. ohwell.

i better get back to ds100. my eyes are hurting. =( i might not attend econ102 tomorrow. bahala na. haha.

ciao. =)

pics to come soon. :)

fade away

2005-11-13T03:41:00.000-08:00

Don't you ever wonder where all your happy thoughts have gone?
In case you don't remember, we were Peter Pans for a day
You say it’s all in a day's work, but days will turn into weeks
And on an on, we go 'til we just forget, we forget
There goes your world on a train
Catch it cause it’s making its last trip
Time don’t take it away
Don’t take it away
Don’t take it all away
When we move to the left, then we move to the right
Forward and then backward 'til the moment's gone we all fade
Spin around we don’t make a sound time keeps moving on
Until your moment’s gone, we all fade away
We can’t be young forever, but that’s what old men say
Just try and remember we were John and Wendy yesterday
There goes your world on a train
Catch it 'cause it’s making its last trip
Time don’t tale it away
Don’t take it away
Don’t take it all away
When we move to the left, then we move to the right
Forward and then backward 'til the moment's gone we all fade away

phone

2005-11-13T03:26:00.000-08:00

fuck!!!nawala lahat ng pix sa phone ko!!! argh!!!!

technology is getting back at me for wanting everything and it SUCKS.

anyway, the anniversary party was great!=) we had so much fun, and im just so proud of my dad.=)pics to come later when im not sulking anymore.

aaahhhhhhh. 8 months to go before my debut!!4 months to go before my bday!! excited na ako!!=D gifts in envelopes are encouraged because the debutante is planning to migrate. hahah!! kasal?! kidding. =D baka letter ang ibigay nyo.

my mind is just all over the place. tanginang phone kasi yan eh. kakabili lang sira na agad.

im watching one tree hill seasons 1 and 2... god, i love jake.

"i could hold you in my arms forever and it still wouldnt be enough."

im melting. hahahahaha..

ayoko na magblog.

aaahhhhh. tulungan nyo ako marecover ung pics. =(

dad

2005-11-10T21:17:00.000-08:00

i havent blogged for days now. i dunno if its cos ive been really busy, or i just wasnt in the mood.

anyway, i enrolled yesterday and got my grades. i achieved my goal. :) *grin reaches the ears* hahahahha. so there. this sem, i have:

econ102 (micro)
polisci14
ds100
math1 (g.e.)
socio101
psych101

im excited. :) class started 3 days ago,but i havent attended any of my classes. hahaha. next week na, sembreak mode pa ako eh. ;)

btw, i have a major problem. tomorrow is anna's debut, and tomorrow is also the induction of the junior jaycees. both at night. both important. both i cant and shouldnt miss. =(. these are the times when i wish i had a doppleganger. hahahaha.

yesterday was tatay piling's death anniversary so we went to don galo for the padasal. mom and dad had to go somewhere after so i decided to just pass by tipol before going home than going with them. i met up with angel, aira, arra, and pearl. mejo late na din. howel.

is anybody actually going to the homecoming this january?

lapit na elections!!! hahahaha! ;)

its one of dad's company's 1st anniversary tonight. there's a function at edsa shangrila and were staying there tonight. yipee. i just love their desserts. hahaha! my dress and shoes arent even here yet. crapness.

btw, im in dad's office in ortigas right now and i left my phones at home. so for those who sent me a message, sorry. :D i think kuya mark will bring it over later. i dont really know. haha.

2nd sem na, us naman. hahaha.. i wish. ;D

2nd sem

2005-11-07T18:54:00.000-08:00

ugh. sembreak is officially over. say hello to reality. ugh. i havent been myself for days now. this is bad. im not in the mood to blog. toodles.

mpyep

2005-11-02T06:45:00.000-08:00

the Miyagi-Philippines Youth Exchange Program won as best youth program in the JCI national convention. :)

penoy gusto ko penoy
ipakita sa tondo
kung ano ang lasa mo
ibang iba ang penoy
wag na 'kaw sa balot
ipagmalaki mo
penoy ako, penoy tayo
-laughtrip!=D

text

2005-10-30T02:11:00.000-08:00

i sent this to those who were in my sun phonebook:

answer these q's to test how well you know the sender:
1.when did i last get drunk?
2.fav color ko ba pink?
3.orton or batista?
4.what is my shoe size?

here are the replies... :)

from angel:
1._nung kinwento moh xken n xobwang nka2hya.
2.no!purple!
3.orton!
4._5

from arvin:
1.kgbi
2.pink
3.orton
4.5

from april:
1.u never drnk alcohol (this was good. haha. :D)
2.d b halata?oo naman.
3.dnt knw
4.4 1/2

from neean:
1.hmm..last heartache??
2.NO! PURPLE!
3.batista
4.5

from gn:
1.tagaytay
2.no
3.ur not fond of wwf (haha. hinihithit ko nga ang wwe eh. haha.:D)
4.4 or 5

from airra:
1.uhh last week?..hihi. :)
2.nah uh its violet.. :)
3.orton.. :)
4.uhh 7 1/2?.. haha.. guess lang toh. :)

from em:
oh shit! mariel sory.. :(
1.no idea
2.i gues no
3.orton
4.5.. :)

from joyce:
1.haha, kelan nga b?wasted!
2.ako may fave nun, purple sayo.. lilac, lavender.. :)
3.hmm, orton?
4.5?6? :)

from arra:
1.last wed i thnk
2.nope
3.orton
4.7 :)

from josh:
1.1styr colege
2.No,
3.Orton
4.5

correct answers:
1. tuesday night :) |EVE|
2. no, its purple :)
3. ORTON.
4. 4 1/2-5 :)

haha. nobody got it all right, but most only had 1 or two mistakes. oh well. :) boredom kills. nyehnyeh. got this from phrundsturr:

10 Favorites

Favorite Color: purple

Favorite Food: sweets

Favorite Band/Singer: sugarfree, whitney houston, boyz ii men, brian mcknight, coldplay, lifehouse, the calling

Favorite Song: burnout

Favorite Movie: my bestfriend's wedding, romeo+juliet, the virgin suicides, white oleander, the rainman, il postino, boys dont cry, uptown girls, mona lisa smile

Favorite Sport: golf???

Favorite Season: spring. definitely. :)

Favorite Day Of the Week: (next sem) mth. haha. microecon lang class eh. haha.

Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: strawberry

Favorite Time of Day: meme time. haha.

*9 Currents...
Current Mood: mood-less. what the hell? haha

Current Taste: sweet. from munchkins. haha.

Current Clothes: shirt and shorts.

Current Desktop Picture: chad michael murray. duh. haha.

Current Toenail Color: colorless?

Current Time: 6:38pm

Current Surroundings: tv, bed, cabinet, table, ipod, phone, window, aircon, fan, etc.

Current Annoyance(s): my brothers

Current Thought: si Him..

*8 Firsts...

First Best Friend: neean!! haha.

First Kiss: :D

First Screen: what?

First Pet: a puppy named brandy.

First Piercing: ears..

First Crush: hmmmmmmm. stefano mori?

First Car: wala pa.

*7 Lasts...

Last Cigarette: the other day?

Last Drink: if nonalcoholic, iced tea. if alcoholic, 3 margaritas and a tequila sunrise nung tuesday.

Last Car Ride: this afternoon from makati..

Last Kiss: :D

Last Movie Seen: tagal na din..

Last CD Played: its matthew's

*6 Have You Evers....

Have You Ever Dated One Of Your
BestFriends: :D

Have You Ever Broken the Law: yep. :D

Have You Ever Been Arrested: no. *thank God*

Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: no.

Have You Ever Been on TV: yes

You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: NO

*5 Things....

5 Things You're Wearing:
watch, shirt, shorts, underwear (counts as two.:D)

5 Things You've Done Today: shopped, heard mass, ate out with the family, watched tv, slept.

5 Things You Can Hear Right Now: rain outside my window, tv, dad crumpling something, 1 phone's msg alert tone, and 1 phone's ringtone.

5 Things You Can't Live Without:
material things i cant live without: 1.sanitizer/alcohol,2.laptop,3.phones,4.iPod,5.palmtop
people i cant live without:
1.GOD,2.parents,3.brothers,4.soulmate,5.mentors

5 Things You Do When You're
Bored: go online, read, sleep, call whoever, text people.

*4 People you'd take on desert Island with
you:
mom,dad,rei,07,j;)

*3 People You Can Tell Anything to:
God, rei, mimz?

*2 Choices...
black or white: white..

Hot or Cold: cold weather, hot food. :)

*1 Thing You Want to Do Before you die:
pray.

lalalala

2005-10-28T00:15:00.000-07:00

i could hold you in my arms forever, and it still wouldnt be enough.

-jake.

mariel rodriguez

2005-10-27T23:58:00.000-07:00

ugh. i hate that mariel person on pbb.

wala lang, i just hate having name twins.

hmpf.

eve

2005-10-27T22:13:00.000-07:00

pics from EVE. :D

EVE

.hay.

ms. goody-two-shoes turned bad.

ciudad

chicosci

slapshock

slapshock

monkeyspank

manong guard ng arkdia

plane divides the sky

the hot plane drummer

eve

2005-10-25T20:21:00.000-07:00

hay. i soooooooo dont wanna drink ever again.

switchfoot pinoy

2005-10-24T20:24:00.000-07:00

may pinoy sa switchfoot!:)

Jerome Fontamillas : Proud to Be Pinoy

Here is another artist that we can be proud of. Did you know that Jerome Fontamillas, Switchfoot's guitar and keyboard player is a true-blooded Filipino? His parents are both Filipino, and are supportive toward his decision to make music as his career. They even forced him to play the piano at a young age, though he didn't like it then. During high school, he started playing the bass and guitar.

Before he joined Switchfoot in 2000 as a session player on the band's independently released Learning to Breathe album, he was already in the music business playing with bands such as Fold Zandura and Mortal.

Recently, Switchfoot bagged ten CMCentral Music Awards, which included Artist of the Year, Entertainer of the Year, Group/Duo/Band of the Year, Christian Artist in the Mainstream, Song of the Year for "Dare You To Move," Pop Vocal Performance by a Duo/Group/Band for their song "This Is Your Life", Rock Song of the Year for "Meant To Live," Rock Performance by a Duo/Band/Group for their song "Meant To Live", Short Form Music Video of the Year for "Dare You To Move", and Long Form Music Video of the Year for their "Live in San Diego".

my life's soundtrack

2005-10-24T20:02:00.000-07:00

i was bloghopping yesterday and patty posted the soundtrack of her life, its their project in english. it made me think about the soundtrack of MY life. these are the finalists so far:

1. love will keep us alive -the eagles
2. complete -stephen speaks
3. let me fall -bethany joy lenz
4. journey -lea salonga
5. dare you to move -switchfoot
6. barely breathing -duncan sheik
7. kwarto -sugarfree
8. leader of the band -dan fogelberg
9. with a smile -eraserheads
10. huling el bimbo -eraserheads
11. everything -lifehouse
12. hanging by a moment -lifehouse
13. sampip -parokya ni edgar
14. i believe in you and me -whitney houston
15. flying without wings -westlife
16. you first believed -hoku
17. breakaway -kelly clarkson
18. hey jude -the beatles

:)

eve

2005-10-23T21:14:00.000-07:00

wala pa akong siguradong kasama sa EVE bukas!!!
aaaaaahhhhhhhhh. guys sama na kayo. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee.
join me in my misery.100 bucks lang ticket, kasama niyo pa ako. hahahhaa.
samahan nyo na ako!!!

________________________________________________________________
guys,

i changed my phone cos it got broken so i lost all
your numbers. boo-hoo.

please do message your numbers to me (sa question box na lang, but be sure to leave your name :D) or you get
a "who's this?" when you text me. haha.

btw, i wont be using my sun # anymore. crappy
network and shitty people. haha.

cheerios.

=* mariel/marielieee/pipay/whatever name you
know me by ;)

ive been replying "who's this" to those who have been sending me messages and its embarrassing on my part cos it would seem like im a no-good friend for losing your numbers and all.

anyhoo, say byebye to pony and say hello to sweetie:

ciao.

2005-10-23T06:11:00.000-07:00

guys,

i changed my phone cos it got broken so i lost all
your numbers. boo-hoo.

please do message your numbers to me (through ym *mariel17au* or josine.david@gmail.com> or you get
a "who's this?" when you text me. haha.

btw, i wont be using my sun # anymore. crappy
network and shitty people. haha.

cheerios.

=* mariel/marielieee/pipay/whatever name you
know me by ;)

depression

2005-10-22T07:19:00.000-07:00

as days pass, im sinking deeper and deeper into depression.

somebody please take me out of this snake pit.

i so need a drink right now.

nights are hard, you know. when everyone's asleep i cant help but think about the past you know. and its hard. im tired of running from it. but im too scared to face it.

Its october again
leaves are coming down
One more year's come and gone
And nothing's changed at all
Wasnt I supposed to be someone
Who can face the things that Ive been running from?
-let me fall

execom planning

2005-10-19T07:58:00.000-07:00

last friday to saturday, the execom of iskolar student alliance went to tagaytay for a meeting and mini-planning session.

what i loved about it?

*walking from my place to starbucks tagaytay!:), running from a drunk, losing breath.
*capri!capri!capri!:) hahahaha. jen and i smoked a lot. tsk3.
*4 hour meeting in starbucks and in my place, from 9:50pm-1:50am
*magic mic after the meeting
*having no sleep at all!:)
*bonding
*capri talaga. hahaha. :D
*very black coffee at 1:30am

hay. i sooooooo wanna do this again.:)

jen, joyce, aaron, and armand, i had so much fun with you guys!:) i sooooooooo wanna do this again and again and again and again and again........ :)

pix

2005-10-19T07:38:00.000-07:00

may i tempt you?:)

letting go or holding on

2005-10-18T05:05:00.000-07:00

when you love someone, do you hold on or do you let go?

my friend and i were talking about her ex who is on the way to insanity. psycho girlfriend material. errr, make it a psycho ex girlfriend material. my friend broke up with her cos she just wasnt happy anymore, and she wanted to stick to her principles, she wanted a life. its like how any same sex relationship goes, both fall inlove and to some extent, dream of ever afters. but sometimes, it comes to a point that one would already be ready to give more than what they unofficially agreed upon. its like an unsaid rule in same sex relationships that sooner or later, things would end (am i right? correct me if im not). but sometimes, one would reach a point wherein one is willing to invest in something more than what they originally had in mind. so what is it then? should you hold on or let go?

i think it also goes for any relationship for that matter. when one reaches the point wherein he/she is willing to have something more than he/she originally wanted, and the other one isnt, should there be holding on or letting go?

this is what happened, A is my friend,B is her ex. A and B were together for a sem or so. there is love, of course, but along the way, A realized she just wasnt happy anymore. on the contrary, B was planning her ever after with A. but the problem is, A doesnt want an ever after with B. its like if A wants a song on a cd, B wants the whole cd. its all or nothing. which in their case is highly inapplicable. for A, their relationship is just something for this certain point in time. with all the pressure and toxicity from school and family and whatever, their relationship was meant to neutralize all that. but it didnt go the way it was planned. for A, its like their relationship is part of any teenager's life full of experimenting and such. but for B, its quite the opposite. B was already planning their life together, with a beachhouse and stuff. A just wasnt ready for that. A wasnt ready to have her future planned out in a way that was restricted to who she is presently with and what she presently has. she wants growth, which B just seems to not understand. B was planning their life together as if they were the only people on earth, as if they didnt have their own families and their own lives, as if they didnt have responsibilities. B was planning their lives as if things wouldnt change, but the thing is, things do change. its inevitable, its a constant, its a given. and the challenge is to grow from that change.

but instead of growing, you know what B does? she goes all psychotic and crazy, wanting to kill herself, be swallowed by the world, and whatnot. and she wants A to pity her. i mean cmon, why would you want someone to pity you? she wants A to stay even if its just out of pity. i mean really, dont you deserve someone better?! now she's bothering just about everyone close to A to help her patch things up, which only drives A farther and farther away cos its already scaring her.

and i dont know how to help A. does anyone know? hahah. ang gulo ng post ko. but the main thing im pointing at is that:

the world is changing right before your eyes

and its up to you to make that change a better one for you. its like when youve hit rock bottom and youre burrying yourself even farther down instead of climbing up like sadako. haha. ewan! ang gulo gulo na ng mundo, pati ba naman ganito kailangang problemahin?

grades

2005-10-18T04:22:00.000-07:00

i already have three of my five classcards:

polisci 11 (intro to political science) (3 units): 1.50

econ 101 (macroeconomics) (4 units): 1.75

philosophy 11 (formal logic) (3 units): 2.00

hay.goodness.

two more to go.. i doubt i can reach cs this sem.. panira ung hum1.. sana kasi pinapasukan ko dba? haha. evilness.

kwizchuns

2005-10-16T06:52:00.000-07:00

1 wear u????????????
what do you mean wear me?? who'd wanna wear me? hahahaha! labo. if you meant "where are you" im still here, ive been really busy.
2 update please =*
im still too lazy, in a few days maybe...
3 hi mariel
hi you
4 hi mariel
hi you
5 hi mariel
what, cant you say another phrase?! haha. kidding. :D
6 what if the one you love suddenly leaves you?
the world is changing right before your eyes...
7 STIGMATIZED DUDE!
dude? where did that come from? haha. love that song. :)
8 meron ka havaianas?
NO. :) i think its too expensive for slippers. id rather spend 150 USD on nine west heels than 800 bucks on flip flops. same goes for happy feet.
9 were do you shop?
my mom buys my expensive stuff, for my not so expensive stuff, i go to landmark, g4, atc, ghills, and even 168.
10 gusto co dn ng rufles!=)
haha! sarap noh? adik ako dun!:D
11 sino si 07 at bakit 07?
07 gave me the will to survive. ahhaha. its 07 cos in the bible, 07 is the perfect number... its somehow associated with infinity and perfection.
12 say what? say who? say where? say how?
what: EVE (Pi's project) its a concert for a cause
who: plane divides the sky, mayonaisse, kamikazee, slapshock, chicosci, ciudad, monsterbot, monkeyspank, out of control (heck, i dont even know half of the bands but its for a good cause so lets go!:D)
where: Arkdia, remedios st. malate manila.
how: buy a ticket from any HOT pi sigman for a hundred bucks, go to manila and help schoolchildren in aklan!:)

ahahha. isama daw ba. =) cmon guys, its for a good cause. =) i wasnt even asked to post it and stuff but i am cos i KNOW its for a good cause and i KNOW its gonna be great.=) cya there aryt?:)

concert

2005-10-16T06:38:00.000-07:00

guys, who wants to watch a concert on the 25th? Pi Sigma Fraternity, an ally of Iskolar Student Alliance will be holding a concert for a cause on the 25th of October, 2005 at Arkdia, Malate Manila. all the proceeds will go to students in Aklan. ticket price is 100 and a lot of bands will be there.

i really wanna come... sama na kayo. :)

the world is changing right before your eyes.

surveys

2005-10-11T04:33:00.000-07:00

im bored but im happy. hahhaha. got these from friendster.. :D

adik ka sa:
~ sa 'yo. kidding. :D *07*

kpag nkk-load ka cno una mong tn-text:
~ whoever

una mong mni-missed call kpag mei load ka:
~ whoever. i rarely miss call anyone.

nag-lalaro ka ba ng pc games:
~ chess sa ym?!

ano ung pinaka-love mo na shirt:
~ my pink "hollywood star" shirt

pinaka-love mo na pants:
~ white capris from giordano

pinaka-love mo na shoes:
~ nine west stilettos!:)

mahilig ka ba mag-suot ng flip flops:
~ uhm, not really but i wear them a lot when i dress down cos theyre comfy.

nanood ka ba noon ng power rangers:
~ yes.

nnood ka ba noon ng batibot:
~ yes

lumabas ka na ba sa tv:
~ yUp!!

marunong ka bang mag-split:
~ back when i used to dance ballet.

tambling marunong ka:
~ no, ive been wanting to learn since forever though!:)

favorite place mo na puntahan sa cubao:
~ i dont think ive ever been there..

maka-dunkin ka ba o mister donut:
~ GO NUTS!!!:D and dunkin. :D

pinaka-love mo na cartoon character:
~ i used to like marvin the martian..

star o butterflies:
~ stars

guy na chinit0 o mestis0 o moren0?
~ chinito :D

chinese o japanese:
~ japanese :D hahahahaha!!!

pure PINOY ka ba:
~ YES!:D

miss mo na sina ___:
~ besties ko. :)

crush mo ngayon:
~ 07. :D

favorite mong puntahan sa school?
~ cafe, lib, stonetables. nyahaha. :D

the people you dont trust these days?
~ a lot.

why do you dont trust them?
~ when you lose someone's trust, its kinda hard to get it back right?

gusto mo bang iwasan sila ?
~ yeah.

chattin or talkin in the phone??
~ talking IN the phone?! hahahahahha!!!!!rotl!:D neither.

gusto mo na bang mamatay?
~ nah.

tagalog or english?
~ i wanna be good in tagalog but im better in english. =S

favorite thing you do in class?
~ listen, pass notes, text, recite!:D and NOT have tests. :D

what do you do when your bored??
~ read read read.

american or aussie?
~ aussie definitely!:D yihee. sino kaya un?!:D

do you think someone is going to read this shit
~ those who read my blog??

do you wanna stop right now?
~ no.

II

spell your name backwards]
* leiram

[the story behind your email address]
* mariel17au--> 17:D mariel_xix-->19 :D

[where do you live?]
* muhkneeluh dudez..

DESCRIBE YOUR...
[wallet]
* black liz clairborne and black xoxo..

[favorite shirt]
* pink "hollywood star"

[piercing/s]
* one on each ear

[hair]
* layered and dark brown

[something you're looking forward to in
the upcoming months]
* christmas :D and my debut. :D

[something that you are deathly afraid of?]
* blood, hypodermic needles, vaccines, stretchers, hospitals, mascots, etc.

[do you believe in love]
* do u believe in magic? hha!:D

[do you believe in forgiveness]
* yes

[where are the 2 places you wouldn't mind
relocating to?]
* iloilo and denmark

[favorite food]
* ruffles sour cream and cheese

[is there something you wish you could
understand better]
* why i cant put on eyeliner without opening my lips hahaha!

[best qualities]
* passion for service

[worst qualities]
* impatient

[what makes you happy]
* drugs hahaha! gaga. :D

[upsets me]
* pressure and substandard performance

[you have a secret you have not shared with
anyone?]
* yes

[last song you listened to]
* sa cd ng hed kandi!!:D adik na ako. haha. :D

[last person you've called]
* mother

[last person that called you]
* mother

[TV show you've watched]
* the nanny

[things you were thinking about]
* the thing on friday, hum final paper..

[lied to someone]
* yes

[ever been in a fist fight]
* with my brothers

[WHAT.. shampoo do you use]
* vaseline

[what do you notice first in a girl/guy]
* smell, eyes, smile

[last time you did something]
* i wrote a letter a few minutes ago

[whats your favorite color/s]
* purple

[what're you planning to do tomorrow]
* go with dad

[makes you laugh the most]
* jokes. ung mga corny!

YES OR NO?
[you think about suicide]
* yes but i dont consider it

[you drink beer]
* ugh, no.

[you ride roller coasters]
* yes

[you write in cursive or print]
* cursive

[you carry a donor card]
* i havent received mine yet

[you have a crush on somebody]
* yes

GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE!!!:D

stigmatized

2005-10-10T06:25:00.000-07:00

If I give up on you I give up on me
If we fight what's true, will we ever be?
Even God himself and the faith I knew
Shouldn't hold me back, shouldn't keep me from you

Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as i am
And live our lives,
stigmatized

I can feel the blood rushing through my veins
When i hear your voice, driving me insane
Hour after hour day after day
Every lonely night that i sit and pray

Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as i am
And live our lives,
stigmatized

We live our lives on different sides,
But we keep together you and I
Just live our lives,
stigmatized

We'll live our lives,
We'll take the punches everyday
We'll live our lives I know we're gonna find our way

I believe in you
Even if no one understands
I believe in you, and i don't really give a damn
If we're stigmatized

We live our lives on different sides
But we keep together you and I
We live our lives on different sides

We gotta live our lives
Gotta live our lives
Were gonna live our lives
We're gonna live our lives,
Gonna live our lives,

Stigmatized

kwestyun

2005-10-07T09:03:00.000-07:00

ive decided to ignore the insignificant questions.

1elo mariel
elo din.. kunware alam ko kung sino ka. para masaya. :D

2hEyYa...h0wRe u??!?!?!?!?!??!SuP?
im OKAY.:D sup? chicken sup o mushroom sup? hahahaha. corny.

3hello sweety marielie, kamusta naman ang up?
okay lang siya. hahaha. joke.:D okay lang, toxic mga tao..
4favoritte muvi?
lemme see.. my best friend's wedding, romeo and juliet, the rainman, boys dont cry, the notebook, etc.
5favoritte song?
stigmatized, ever after, everything, bakit ngayon ka lang, it might be you, the way you look tonight, wherever you will go, burn (tina arena), gemini, KWARTO, TULOG NA, MARIPOSA, prinsesa, hanggang kailan, the closer i get to you..etc.
6friendster???
mariel_xix@yahoo.com
7favoritte subject?
wow, autograph. kung hindi si dr sioco ung naging prof namin, i wouldve loved philo11/logic.. but since she was our prof, ill go for polisci14 and econ101..
8mahirap poh ba college?
okay lang. mahirap kung tatamad tamad ka lang. of course you hafta do your part.
9i luv u honey!!
nyeh. basta ako, I LOVE :D hahaha. sino kaya love ko?:D
10who are you?
aba aba aba.. ako si mariel. angal ka? hhahaha. punta2 ka dito d mo pala ako kilala..labo naman u eh. ahhaha!!:D
11who is youre crush?
i crush HIM. :D
12take care sweetie.
:D

gnayt. sleepy na me! pagod me eh. lakas ulan here. there? hahaha. labo.
sweetest dreams. :)

*iLovEyou.=D*

labyu

2005-10-07T08:55:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU. :D

hay. so happy. :D

perfection.

hahahhaha.

:D

lolo

2005-10-05T04:31:00.000-07:00

my lolo is sick. he has dengue. (i think). =(. please pray for him.=(

2nd sem

2005-10-04T21:24:00.000-07:00

hahaha!!!I SURVIVED FORMAL LOGIC!!!
i hate rules of replacement but amused with quantification.
i love logic but hate Dr. Ma. Paula G. Sioco, PHd.

i didnt take my econ101 final exam cos i forgot to wake up early. okay lang, exempted naman eh. hahahaha. yabang!!:D

subjects next sem:
1 econ102
2 devstud100
3 polisci14
4 psych101
5 socio101
6 either math 1 or natsci II

im taking econ102 in advance. haha. suicidal. im actually going to take it with devstud100. oh cmon. am i suicidal now!?

lil prince

2005-10-01T04:19:00.000-07:00

he is just one of those who i couldve made mine. but his planet is indeed too small. there's no room in it for two people.

-the little prince.

run away with me, please?

econ101

2005-10-01T03:24:00.000-07:00

i passed the econ101 exam!!!

GOD IS GOOD!!!

God is good all the time, and all the time, God is good. =D a lot of my classmates failed, and i passed!!!=D my score? 73/100. it isnt high, but considering how wicked that exam was, i love my score!=) i dont hafta take the econ101 final exam anymore.. but maybe i will. ewan ko, bahala na. ;)

batiin ko na kaya sya?

laughtrip

2005-09-26T09:45:00.000-07:00

i know its mean pero laughtrip tlga ung multiply niya. nyahahaha. kawawa. sino? secret. haha. i bet you dont know who im talking about. hay. nyahahahhahahhahahhahahah. laughtrip tlga!!!=D sabi ni uzzi kawawa daw un, walang future.=D nyahahahahaha. laughtrip tlga!!!=D

you wanna know you?
ask me.
:D

leaving

2005-09-26T08:47:00.000-07:00

im envious of those people who can just go pack their bags, hop on a plane, and leave everything else. and not have second thoughts about it. im envious of those people who can readily leave where they presently are and go to another world, not knowing whats in store for them. im envious of those people who can risk the things they have in their quest for adventure. im envious of those people who can let go even before leaving.

i love to travel. but despite the many chances i had to stay in another place, i never could live in a place so different from my patria adorada. i love risks, but i dont like taking them. im not so thrilled about change either. sometimes, i just want to hop on a plane, go to denmark/seattle, and live there. i can always do so. but i know it would come to a point when i would just miss (for lack of a better term) the things i have here, the people im with here, and just everything about this place.

so there. ive decided not to push through with the singapore thing anymore. there are far too many issues ive yet to resolve before i can even think of leaving this place again.

nothingness

2005-09-26T02:49:00.000-07:00

1. what kind of first impression do you think peoplesay when they first see you?
- elitistang conio.

2. what's one thing you like to do alone?
- sleep!!!

3. what is your favorite line to say when you're drunk?
- i probably wouldnt remember

4. how many drinks before you're tipsy?
- 7, i guess.

5. do you ever have to beg?
- from my parents?! OF COURSE!!

6. what kind of books do you like to read?
- anything. from dan brown, to lualhati bautista, to paulo coellho, to pol medina jr's pugad baboy, to jk rowling, to milan kundera, to just about anything i get my hands on. bookwhore.

7. do you think you're cute?
- no. i think im gorgeous. :D

8. do you have a problem changing clothes in front of your friends?
- tipol friends, no.:D

9. favorite communication method?
- cellphone

10. do you care?
- most of the time, no.

11. what do you eat when you raid the fridge at night?
- i only raid the fridge when there's cake in it.:D

12. describe your bed?
- canopy bed. purple bedsheets. purple comforter. 4 big pillows. 2 baby pillows. lots and lots of stuffed toys.

13. spontaneous or planned?
- spontaneous pero doable.:D

14. do you know how to play poker?
- no. but i do know how to play GOOD MORNING QUEEN!!:D

15. what do you carry with you at all times?
-phone, wallet (kahit konti lang cash), sanitizer, brush, gloss, iPod, tungsten, cologne..

16. what do you miss most about being little?
- why, am i not little anymore?;)

17. are you happy with your given name?
- yes.

18. what will you eat later?
- dinner

19. what color is your bedroom?
- purple.

20. have you ever been in a play?
- lots of times.

21. do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
- yes. if i dont, then who would? i love myself inspite of my imperfections, rather, i love myself because of my imperfections.

22. do homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?
- when they complain about what you give them or abuse your kindness.

23. do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
- yes

24. do you spend more time with your girlfriend/ boyfriend or your friends?
- boyfriend. i spend a lot of time with GOD eh. :)

25. what's one thing you wish you could do but can't?
- be in two places at once? *a walk to remember* landon carter!!!

26. what is your ideal wedding location?
- the beach where the movie THE BEACH was filmed.

27. whats one instrument you wish you couldplay?
- sax!!! un na!!!

28. whats one language do you want to learn?
- latin and german

29. what do you order at a bar?
- margarita, calamares

30. have you ever pierced your body parts?
- ears lang. i dont like body piercings.

31. do you have any tattoos?
- no, henna lang. i donate blood. :D

32. would you admit to getting plastic surgery?
- when i get older, maybe.

33. what's one trait you hate in a person?
- superiority and inferiority complex.

34. do you consider yourself materialistic?
- yes

35. what do you cook best?
- pasta and chopsuey

36. do you cry in front of your friends?
- oo naman.

37. do you believe in forever?
- i used to. i kind of need someone to help me believe in it once more. ;)

shit

2005-09-25T03:48:00.000-07:00

SHIT.
why does the past continue to haunt me?!

calibrated preemptive response my ass

2005-09-24T02:53:00.000-07:00

calibrated preemptive response my ass

last time i checked, it wasnt 1972 and marcos is long dead. and yet Executive Secretary announced last Sept. 21, 2005 that "The rule of calibrated preemptive response is now in force, in lieu of maximum tolerance. The authorities will not stand aside while those with ill intent are herding a witting or unwitting mass of people and inciting them into actions that are inimical to public order and the peace of mind of the national community."

points to consider:
1. maximum tolerance- our penal code gives the people the right to mobilize, assemble, demonstrate grievances. and the government's role is to uphold that right, to make sure that the people can assert their right, and not to tolerate it. the people's right to assemble is a right, and not a privilege given by the government.

2. marcosm- are we under martial law??? is there even any acceptable precedent for such rule?

3. the people are underestimated- dont you think we people should be given more credit? i mean, a lot of people choose not to rally because they believe otherwise. a lot of people too, choose to rally because they believe it is the avenue for their grievances. doesnt the division show how WISER people are? i mean, it just shows how much people have grown, no longer playing pawns to the opposition nor to the administration. and still they think we people are that gullible.

4. so edsa 1 is useless?- edsa 1 overthrew an abusive regime. so why are we still living in the shadows of martial law?

5. why should the rallies against the present admin be any different from the rallies against the former admins?- maybe the admin has forgotten that gma wouldnt be where she is now if not for edsa 2. what difference is there? rallies both against present and former admins are results of the people's hunger for change. so why should the rallies agaisnt her predecessor be any different from the rallies against her? why should the people be denied of the right to change?

ugh. calibrated preemptive response MY ASS.

joke-jokean

2005-09-22T03:40:00.000-07:00

okay, in times of cramming for an effin term paper, walang pinipili ang utak. kahit ang pinakacorny na joke, bebenta.at ang pinakakakaibang katanungan, mapapaisip ka.

eg:
1Paano ka ba naman makakadiskarte kay cute na Miss Pharmacist eh kung ang bibilhin mo sa Mercury Drug ay Dolculax (pangpatae) at Antiox (pangpurga)? Aber.

2paano po kayo makakapag bottomless drinks, eh take-out ang order niyo?
thanks to this guy.
.

god, this guy
is soooo rich. when i say rich, i mean RICH. he's a gaultier-gucci-LV-chanel-dior-fendi-hermes sporting, business class travelling, 16 year old. I want his life. =( hay. haha, kidding. pero wow, he's so rich. plus, he writes really well.

hell weeks??
~~1. logic exam~~
~~2. macroecon exam~~
~~3. macroecon report~~
~~4. polisci 11 exam~~
5. polisci 11 term paper
6. polisci 11 presentation
7. psych10 compilation
8. macroecon finals (?)
9. humanidades I papers (?)
~~10. humanidades I exam~~
11. humanidades I finals (?)

ive got a polisci term paper to cram for, so tata for now.

pbb

2005-09-21T07:21:00.000-07:00

wala na, addict na ako sa pinoy big brother. hahhahhaha. goodness.

dude-DOD
cool off-KOL OP
laughingstock-LAUGHING STAFF.

hahahaha.

pics and quessies

2005-09-17T05:12:00.000-07:00

1bakit ayaw mo maging kayo ulit?!alam naman ng lahat na inaagaw mo si hal kay joy!!

ah tlga? sinong lahat ang sinasabi mo? tagal na namn na hindi naguusap, tpos inaagaw ko?! people are just so insecure.

2UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

meron na boss. sensya na, i have a life.

3ate, kaylan ka pupunta ulit ng school?

i was there last last wednesday.. ewan ko kung kelan ulit.. katamad eh.

4may pet ka?

yup. pomeranian, monster.

5musta na po u?

otei lang poh me. buhai pa din poh me. caw poh? haha. im OKAY.:D

6ate marielieee, pahinge naman poh acq ng advice. magmamigrate na poh kx family q sa us. dapat ba makipagsplit acq sa ka-on q? mahal na mahal q poh sia. dq poh caia ng wala sia.ayaw coh poh sia iwan.='''''''''''

:( ansad naman nun.. pero dahil sa mahal mo siya, kayanin mo.. be strong for the both of you.. pero un, syempre you hafta decide if the relationship is worth fighting for. if you think it is, then fight for it. to hell with the consequences. :)

7ano poh favorite shows moh?

i dont watch tv often.. cartoons, wwe, pinoy big brother. :D

8how old are you?you seem old but looks young.-carl

17.

9sori lang. kunware ka pa.

you are so NOT forgiven.

10bakit ang dami umaaway saio dahil kay hal?

because people hate what they do not understand. and because their lives suck they want to ruin mine. like they can even come close to doing so.

11favorite clor?

purple

12may friendster ca?

yup. i have a link below the tagboard. just for friends, though. haha, feeling sikat. nah, i just hate WEIRD strangers adding me.

13bitter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and thats news?

14amishu pretty marieliee!!!!!!!

awww. im sure i miss you too. i miss my friends. hay. drama.

15why did you quit?

what, blogging? i didnt. i wasnt in the mood to blog...

16ogenki desu ka.

wow. genki desu! onamae wa nan to osshaimasu ka? ki o tsuke kudasai!!:)

17mai,iloveyoustill.

sana lang walang poser si hal no? whoever sent that is such a loser.

im sleepy... i miss the gagos..=(

barely breathing

2005-09-14T07:41:00.000-07:00

cos i am barely breathing...
and i cant find the air...
I dont know who I'm kidding...
imagining you care.

update

2005-09-14T06:25:00.000-07:00

haha! no update for two weeks! :) san ka pa?! haha. im online almost everyday, but it just seems that whenever i think of something to blog about, i lose the interest to do so anyway. today though, i couldnt let something as big as this pass by: there was a bomb threat in my beloved UP this morning.. okay, so it isnt really as big as some would think but it was definitely something. halfway through our macroecon class...

*through sms
april: may bomb threat daw sa AS
mariel: pano mo alam? sino nagsbe? may class nga kami ngayon eh.
april: tumawag daw sa dean's office. 10:30 sasabog.
*mariel looks at watch.. uhm, parang past 10 na?!
mariel: nagcla2ss kame, wla namang nagpapanic sa labas. pano mo lam?
april: sa OCS. lumabas na kaming lahat.
mariel: o? nagcla2ss pdn kme.. inform nyo ung faculty..
april: may tumawag na bawat dept eh.
*end.

amazing no? haha. while we were texting, i wasnt really taking it too seriously. although i told my seatmates who told their seatmates... about it. haha. then some DSS people and a guard called Prof. Gutierrez. when she left the room, my blockmates and i were talking about it. then Prof. Gutierrez went back and told us to go get our things and go to the parking lot. when we got to the parking lot, there were already a lot of students outside. a bomb squad and a policecar was there, too. classes were suspended.

but, this story is better: DBS-DAC-DB-Cybernook-Lib Corridors. 8:40 p.m. Tuesday, Sept. 13, 2005 after logic. ALL LIGHTS OFF. NO LIGHT AT ALL. ZERO VISIBILITY. zara, lucille, and i were in a hurry to leave cos it was already late. when we saw how dark the corridor was, we were so scared we pulled kc, quincy, and jeff to come with us. it was so dark, we were so close together and pulling each other's bags, or clothes, and whatnot. we've already passed DB when kc and i were really screaming and shaking and freaking out already.

mariel: uy, ayoko na talaga. sa ibang way na lang tayo, please.
kc: ayoko na din
jeff: uy dba six lang tayo? ba't parang...
*mariel and kc--->TAKBO!! HAHA.

sabi ni zara, pwede na daw kami ni kc sa olympics. haha. duwag.

anyway, ima answer the questions next time. tinatamad tlga ako eh. nighty-night!:)

leaving song

2005-08-30T09:28:00.000-07:00

"though i wish that i were with you now, i know that there is a reason for space."

see what i mean?

econ

2005-08-30T08:21:00.000-07:00

timecheck: 11:22p.m.

ive had 3 cups of coffee, and im still way sleepy. ugh. i cant sleep though, i hafta finish the write-up for my macroecon report. ugh. this day sucks. i went from my 2:30 class straight to tipol to watch the sabayang pagbigkas only to find out that the program had started late (wait, that was expected) and that the sabayan hasnt started yet. i told myself id leave tipol at 3:45, to be just a little late for my humI exam cos i really wanted to see the juniors. twas a good thing they were first, so after their outro, i left at once, although after talking a bit with angel, aira, and arra. i was so spent when i got to UP. still, i had to run to my humI classroom only to find out that the prof decided to make it a take-home exam. kainis. then i found out that the juniors had lost. and yeah, ripped my heart out. dr. sioco gave us the results of our last exam and im hafeeeee to say its so much better. i got 97/100, i have an additional point so that makes it 98/100!!and thats in a subject i most definitely loathe!.. so much better than the 80 i got in the first exam. then we had a quiz about rules of replacement which wasnt discussed prior to the quiz (again, this was expected). i got hold of a copy of the rules of replacement a few hours before the quiz, and still, got 17/20!:) isnt perfect, but good enough. :) whats ironic was that the whole day last tuesday, i was at tipol with the kids, and wasnt able to study much (the exam was later that day), and i was even jumpy because of the juniors' sabayan. pero, wow. haha. i soooooooo had to text ms santillan about that, goodluck charm ata ung kids na un eh. :) ano, visit ko na every exam? haha. was sooooooooooooo tired when i got home, but lots of paperwork to accomplish so here i am, drowning myself in my 4th cup of coffee, not ym-ing with anyone so as to concentrate, and yet, blogging.

1ate, nakita poh qtah kanina. naka-blu and wyt stripes cah poh. :) miss cah na poh nya.c".)

hmmmm. you really had to say what i was wearing? haha. kidding. hmmmm. miss na nya ako? again, if were thinking of the same person, then, crap.. miss ko na sya. haha. :D labo.

2why did you left after the 3rd yr finished?

hmmmm.. why did i left? or why did i leave? haha. peace tayo. :D i was supposed to have an exam at 4pm. eh they started a little before 4, so i had to rush.

3i saw you po talking to yourself in the gym.

hoy i wasnt kaya!!.. i was memorizing the rules of replacement, thats why i was holding a sheet of paper!..hmpf.

4alam mo, obvious naman na bitter ka pa. aminin mo na kc.

what exactly should i admit? and what am i bitter about?

5ang dami mo palusot!!!!!!!!!! alam namin nagsawa ka lang sa kanya!!!!!!!!!! porket lang nagka"bestfreind" ka na lalake. pakatototo ka nga!!!!!

ano away na lang?! kung alam niyo, bakit pa kayo nagtatanong?! dont push me.

6ang sama mo, nakikita kita. friend pa nang HAL mo ung palagi mong pinupuntahan!!! binigyan mo pa ng regalo nung birthday niya!!!gusto mo magaway pa sila!!!

get your facts straight. hal KO? hal hasnt been mine in a year and a half. are you that stupid? birthday->regalo. whats so scandalous about that?! gusto ko magaway sila?! and what would i get from that?!

7ate, ang cute ng pants na soot mo today, yung whyt. saan mo poh nbili? ano brand?

thanks, i think so too. :D i love it. :D kuya mark got it for me when he went to hongkong a few months ago. hmmm..lemme check, giordano.

8pano mo alam na masaya sha cai joy?!mag-isip ka nga!!!

pano ko alam? hal cooked carbonara for joy on her birthday. if you werent happy with someone, would you spend that much effort? another thing, i dont think they would still be together if they werent happy with each other. its been more than a year.

9are you a singer? -christy

yeah. a frustrated one. ugh.

dont push me, id be more than willing to face all of you. hell, you know who i am and i answer honestly, you people?! quite the opposite.

hafeeeee...

2005-08-29T03:30:00.000-07:00

im happy once more.:D sabi na eh.:D nyahaha. can i help it? basta. im happy. :D but im craving for a margarita. i dunno why. nyahaha. basta, im sooooo happy!:D ive gotta finish typing the report handouts for macroecon.. ciao everyone.:D

happy.happy.happy.:D

HAPPINESS

2005-08-28T04:22:00.000-07:00

masaya ako ngayon. may reklamo ka?:D hahahaha. im sooooooo happy. :D

im over hal.

seryoso yan. :) promise. and nprove ko yan kanina. basta. :D im soooooo happy. :D happy happy happy. :D i bet tomorrow, happy ulit ako. :D mom has a new phone, ericsson P910i. inggit ako. haha, she's having a hard time using it though. i want i want i want!!!:D

1do you smoke?
occasionally. capri. capri. capri.

2hi ate mariel, misu nah poh. =)
hi..and you are? ako, miss ko na siya.:D

3bakit ang sungit mo dun sa nagtanong tungkol sa best freind mo at sa hon19 mo?1?!?!? at kung hindi nga ung best freind mo yung dahilan, ano??????
ewano pkelam mo kung magsungit ako?? malamang lang, last year pa un. late reaction?! i broke up with hal because things got too complicated, far too complicated for both of us to handle. so might fighting, insecurities, jealousy, demands, and pain. sometimes, you've gotta know when to stop fighting. and no one should say that i gave up on us easily. tangina, you could only imagine how hard it was for me. tama na. its been a year, lets give it a rest.

ano model ng cellphone mo? is it what u use when taking pix?
ericsson P910i. damn, i wish!:D haha. 7200. ugh. so old na.. yup, that and my digicam.

give 10 boy and girl names and say what you like about them.
girls:
1.china- the best shock absorber ever!:D
2.pam- kambal!:D
3.mimi- bestfriend.:D
4.kat caranto- grrrreeeaaattttt dancer.:D
5.angel- un na!:D
6.airra- fairly odd parent.haha.
7.arra- kulet matakot!haha.
8.pretty- my missing demon. haha.:D what i like about her? the way she is when she's drunk!haha.
9.ate teng- strength.:)
10.neean- her smile is the same in all pictures.

boys:
1.rei- the best teddybear, alarm clock, everything!:) and the corniest person!!!:D
2-10....wala na.:D

do you regret letting go?
for some time, yes. but then, ive come to realize that that happened for a reason. and that everyone became better persons after what happened. i think. haha. pero un.. of course there was a time when i did regret it, but the thing is, this is what i want. i want to be in love, not in a relationship that would definitely turn out for the worst.

nakapagmove on ka na ba? paano kung balikan ka nya?
im moving on. :D kaya ko na. :D hmmmm.. kung balikan nya ako? possible, but very unlikely. id like to think that hal is happier with joy. :) and honestly, im okay with that. :) we're both happier and better now, tama na un. :) masaya na sya, okay na ako dun. :)

gusto ko na mamatay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
do you think that would solve anything? c'mon.. life has so much in store for you, and God has a bigger and better plan that you have for yourself, you just have to trust Him. :)

naiinis ka ba sa mga fc?
minsan. lalo na ung nagfee2ling na alam lahat. nako.. haha.

hay. im sooooooooooo happy. :D un na!:D

kanta

2005-08-25T07:51:00.000-07:00

the past days were crazy. or should i say, i was crazy. more than thrice already, i danced all of a sudden (i was alone,of course). i just felt on shaking my ass. haha. i dunno, i felt really good when i danced. either that or i danced cos i felt good. then just a few hours ago, i got my palmtop, went to a lyrics site, sang and recorded 9 songs. haha. what is it with frustrating talents?! i recorded 9 songs..

1. till they take my heart away
2. burn
3. out of reach
4. sana maulit muli
5. when you believe
6. wonderwall
7. overjoyed
8. killing me softly
9. power of two

any requests?! haha. huwala lang. i just felt singing and i did! this isnt the first time i recorded myself singing. haha. vain,i know. :D of course i wanted to know if suck big time or just plain suck. haha. i feel so happy. :D

yesterday wasnt so good for me, though. the group we trained got 2nd place and i was depressed the whole day. im not really sure whether i was depressed or just exhausted. tuesday, it was just i who trained the kids. ugh. i wasnt able to eat until lunch yesterday. it was sooooo tiring and frustrating. they were better during practice than the competition. it was all good though. the experience was victory already. i saw myself in those kids. when i was reminding them of their voices, facial expressions, actions, i saw the bigkaser i was two years ago. i dunno, somehow i kind of wanted to perform too. haha. frustration. during the competition, i had to be the one to do the lights,the problem was i didnt know how!.. my heart was thumping and my hands were shaking all throughout. then the kids gave us gifts. im wearing the bracelet!:) and a letter. it was exhausting, a bit disappointing, definitely frustrating, but somehow, also fulfilling. it was weird, there was a sense of fulfillment and at the same time, disappointment.

for the one who asked the question about me leaving hal for rei, please quit it. i dont even need to explain why i broke up with hal. hal knows the reason why and thats the only thing that matters. besides, you're a year and a month late sweetie.

angel, arra, and aira ingat tomorrow. :) missyou. :)

oyasoumi nasai. ki o tsuke kudasai.

kuhuweezzchunz

2005-08-25T04:21:00.000-07:00

hi ate mariel!kilala poh qitah. miss mo na xa nho?

o? weh. di nga. nyahaha. sinong xa? sino sa kanila? haha. kung isang tao lang ang iniisip natin, o0.. sobrang miss ko na sya.:D

bakit hindi ka nagtatagalog?

hmmmm. bakit, anong wika ba 2ng gnagamit ko? i just speak/write better in english. masama?

you love your bestfriend? siya ba si hal? ang gulo mo naman.

kalma lang. magulo tlga ako. tanong po pa sa kanya. ang bestfriend ko ay si reiman tuazon. hindi si rei si hal. therefore, my bestfriend isnt hal. hypothetical syllogism. nyahaha. exam hangover.

bakit fuck closure? bakit mura? cguro poh plge cah nagmumura..

cos i dont give shit about closure. either way, im fine. yep, i swear a lot. fuck, shit, damn, and the occasional tangina. the last one i use only when im really agitated.

kailan pa ung braces mo? tatanggalin na ba? masakit ba may braces?

hmmm. june2001. my braces are ancient. haha. nope, not yet. ehrm, needs getting used to.

where can i get your pictures?

google it. haha. kidding. nowhere.

hi ate mariel, nasaan poh ung answers moh?

here. where else?

hi, i think where in the same place. i have a bestfriend too, and i loves him. but he doesnt love me.

same place?you're in my room??? haha. kidding. i dont think we are. cos my bestfriend, he loves me, in the same way that i love him. ;)

bakit hindi na lang kayo ng bestfriend mo? di ba kaya mo naman iniwan si hon19 mo dahil sa kanya!??!!!?!??

where the fucking hell did that come from?! tagal nang issue nyan! i didnt leave hon19 for rei. tangina. from your question, i take it that you dont even know the whole story. get your facts straight. and just so you know, i dont want to have anything more than what rei and i have right now.

kwiztsunz

2005-08-24T02:05:00.000-07:00

paulinian ka?from pasig?
nope, paranaque.

who's hal?
sikreto. ikaw, sino ka? kidding. sya na un.

ano ipod mo?saan mo binili and how much?
mini..pink. my mom got it in the states. 300usd. i think its a lot cheaper now.

sabayan

2005-08-24T00:10:00.000-07:00

i will most definitely miss sabayan.

closure.

2005-08-23T07:21:00.000-07:00

closure. well, minus the talking. i guess seeing hal was enough. so maybe i havent moved on, but now, i can actually feel good about things. im not scared and arrogant anymore to admit that well, maybe, just maybe, i still am unfoolishly in love with hal. and to me, thats a good thing. fuck closure. dont get me wrong, im not hoping/thinking that were getting back together. i just feel better now. i feel nicer now, without the guilt, hatred, and evil thoughts. kidding, 'course. seriously though. i love being in love. and although i dont want to be with hal anymore, i love him. the relationship just made things complicated. im okay with just loving hal. nothing more, nothing less. who knows, perhaps someday i'd be able to move on, maybe not. but for now, i quit forcing myself to. im happy. after a year and a month now, i can finally say i am happy. :)

"Head Over Feet"

I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it (sorry.)

You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was (thanks. i like it cos its you.)

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault (one year and one month. can you believe that before you, one month was long enough. and yes, i love loving you)

Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service (we were stronger than i gave us credit for.)

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience (thanks for your patience. thank you.)

You're the best listener that I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long (pride?arrogance?)

I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now (that inspite of everything,i shouldnt be scared)

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

im back to blogger now. :)

huwala lang

2005-08-21T09:20:00.000-07:00

i like the colors, dont you?

Take the quiz: "What clothing store are you?"

Prada
Looking the best is the most important thing...Who cares about the money...its your dads anyway...

balik

2005-08-14T08:54:00.000-07:00

ayan, binalik ko na. nageerase kasi ako ng files sa komfyootuhr.

updates:

1. finally finished my macroecon report. 11 pages. summary lang naman eh.
2. magiimbento nanaman ako ng learnings sa psych10. whats new?!
3. 3 minutes na lang, birthday na ng teddy bear ko!:) HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND!:) amwaaaahhhh.:) iloveyOusOmUcH.:) aishite iru yo!:)
4. hindi na muna ako magbloblog. mejo dumadami na ang mga kailangan kong atupagin.
5. finance comm. head na ako ng Iskolar Student Alliance!:) aylabyoo guys!:D
6. sa mga Southville guys ko, galingan niyo ha. daya tlga nung ibang section!!!.. d ble, pagagandahin pa natin ung senyo. :) im frawwwwd of you!:)
7. mugto na ang mga mata ko (whatever mugto means)
8. peyups member na ako!:)
9. report ko na sa macroecon sa wednesday..malapit na ako mamatay.
10. naalala ko lang, mahirap pala ang assignment ko sa logic at hindi ko pa nasisimulan. nyahha. cramming galore.

hindi na muna ako magbloblog. pero dko tatanggalin ang tagboard ko dahil yan ang ginagamit ng boylets ko para sabhin sakin ang mga nararamdaman nila.

oyasoumi nasai..

pagod

2005-08-09T07:25:00.000-07:00

i hate this day. sobra. pagod na ako. ayoko na. ayoko na tlga. pagod na ako. hindi na worth it eh. tama na. titigilan ko na to.

btw, congrats sa mga blockmates ni meh!:) galing2..90/100!!:)

whateverthings

2005-08-08T07:50:00.000-07:00

EIGHT random things about me...
1. i love sleeping
2. i love travelling
3. i collect shoes and bags and books. ;)
4. i play golf
5. i collect porcelain dolls. :D
6. future UP law student
7. future president of the Philippines. ;)
8. techie

SEVEN ways to win my heart...
1. must love GOD
2. be clean
3. smell good
4. pamper me
5. call me a lot
6. wake me up when i ask you to
7. sing. ;)

SIX things that make me mad...
1. inconsistency
2. narrow-mindedness
3. stupidity
4. fakers/posers/wannabes
5. two-timing assholes
6. stereotyping

FIVE things I believe in...
1. GOD
2. myself
3. destiny
4. reason
5. miracles

FOUR things I want to do before I die...
1. bungee jump
2. scuba dive
3. go to rome and meet the pope
4. backpack across Europe!!

THREE things I'm afraid of...
1. blood
2. failure
3. regret

TWO things I need to do right now...
1. logic assignment!!!
2. macroecon report!!!

ONE person I want to see right now...
1. haha. isang tao lang. siya lang. siya pa din. malamang matapos ang ilang buwan, siya pa din. ;)

hwla lang

2005-08-08T06:18:00.000-07:00

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fuck,hirap itype nun ha.nyahaha.GOODLUCK!=)

slim

2005-08-07T09:13:00.000-07:00

how far have you gone/would you go for love?

i went to baguio twice to look for that person. we were okay one day, then the day after, *poof*. i looked for that person twice. i went to baguio twice with the intention of looking for that person, but to no avail. its all good, though. it wasnt intentional on his part. i know him too well. now he's in New Jersey. and yes, i am thinking of going there. but the thing is, for what?! its been too long and too painful for me to actually even think of going as far as New Jersey.

would it be worth it?

roco

2005-08-07T04:46:00.000-07:00

i couldnt bear not posting this...

Rest in Peace, Sen. Raul Roco.

thank you for believing in our (youth) capacity to create change and make this country a better one for the future generations. you may not be the president, but you truly are a public servant. and for that, we are thankful.

southville,tagaytay,etc

2005-08-07T00:06:00.000-07:00

yesterday, china and i helped mae and her blockmates in their english project. i might see them again tomorrow. *crossed fingers* thats if i finish studying for psych and doing my dream journal,which is full of crap. after their practice, my dad picked me up, we went to tagaytay cos my mom and her officemates had their planning in our apartelle. (you can contact me for reservations. i can give a discount.. ;D). so anyway, when we got there, i was so tired that i slept from 4pm to 8pm straight. a little after 10, we left for Gpoint, a bar in Tagaytay. Thank heavens for margaritas!!it was sooooooo cold. it was only after drinking that i was able to take my jacket off. syempre nainitan na ako noh. we were drinking and singing and dancing and pretty much having fun despite the rain and the cold. when we went back to the apartelle, i was soooo tired and semi-drunk. i shared the pink room with ninang vangie so naturally, i couldnt smoke. i had to pretend i was having a midnight snack so i could go out. i went out of the room and smoke just one stick. nako, masama na toh. i was craving for it. so anyway, we heard mass this morning then had coffee and breakfast and starbucks. the view was well, beautiful. it was foggy and you couldnt really see anything but the fog but nevertheless, it was still breathtaking. Tagaytay is definitely one of my favorite places on earth. I love going there, I love having a place there, I love spending time with my family and friends there. I love the beauty it offers. Plus, i get to have my coffee and have rest and fun minus the congestion. obvious ba na inlove ako sa tagaytay??

this week, im planning to really put in more time for my studies. i have an exam in psych10 and my macroecon report is due next week. i will try to avoid nonsense internet activities like chatting, ym, and blogging. ugh. as if my self-control is something i can brag about. ta-ta!

monster

2005-08-04T09:04:00.000-07:00

its midnight and its raining pretty hard right now. monster (my baby) was barking and barking and so i went to check up on him. since he poops around the house, he has to stay in the dirty kitchen every night. and so, i checked up on him and he was scared (i think) cos it was raining so hard. when i got there, he went up to me and started jumping. i rubbed his back cos kuya jeff said thats the way to make him calm down. well, he did a bit. so what i did, i opened two big umbrellas and placed them in front of him so he wouldnt see what was happening outside. amazingly, he calmed down. hay. i worry about him so much. pano pa kaya pg ngka-anak ako dba? i dont wanna be like those over-protective-almost-insane moms. but, i cant help it. i love my baby. sleep tight monster. mommy loves you. :)

econ and philo

2005-08-03T04:23:00.000-07:00

ugh. got my scores in my logic and macroecon exams... 80/100. :( babawi na tlga ako. my grade in macroecon shouldve been 95...pero careless eh. tangina. dmi ksing epal eh.

hp62

2005-08-01T21:06:00.000-07:00

i finished reading hp6 today. i started sunday night. wow. i cried a bit, but i like the developments in the story. i cant wait to get hold of the final book. it better be good, cos ima be waiting for years again. im sooooooo excited. :) im kind of toying with the idea of being an auror any day now. haha. dream on.

and for those effin idiots...*flick*Sectumsempra!

crap

2005-08-01T07:52:00.000-07:00

i just finished my reaction paper for psych10 about my genogram and honestly, ive never written anything as full of shit and nonsense as that effin essay was.

wag epal

2005-08-01T07:00:00.000-07:00

wag kasi kayong epal. oo, ang lalaki niyong epal.

you have conflicting ideals with the alliance you choose to be with, along with a lame excuse for conviction.

do you even know what consultation means?! i take it that you dont. weird really, cos isnt that an ideal of the alliance you're in?

and yeah, changing the decision so as to keep those who have decided to leave on the grounds of your lack of consultation doesnt really make you any better.

regardless of your reasons for your decision, it doesnt justify your lack of consultation. no use in staying in an org where the ones in charge do not value what its members think.

you preach about democracy and yet you dont even know how to practice it.

i guess that puts you in the hypocrite list right?

i deeply regret having been affiliated with you at all.

definitely one of the biggest mistakes i made.

oh yes, galit ako.

hp6

2005-07-31T06:03:00.000-07:00

i have it na!:) i wasnt even planning on buying it. ive been wanting to, but ive been restraining myself. i was supposed to have someone buy it for me from the states, but today when i went to national and saw that there were only two books left, i grabbed the chance. i looked for my parents and asked them if i could buy it, and my dad said i could use my visa for it. so i did and now i have it!:) i havent started reading it yet cos i had to finish my genogram for psych10. ima read it tonight, and i guess ima be finished by tomorrow or tuesday. i finished hp5 in one day so... ah basta excited na ako! kahit alam ko na ung story. sheesh. haha. walang epekto ang spoilers sa akin. nyahaha. oyasoumi nasai. :)

2005-07-29T19:54:00.000-07:00

JUSTICE SECRETARY NOW POINTS GUN AT UP

Scores of students from Iskolar Student Alliance, a university-wide alliance, of the University of the Philippines- Manila yesterday lambasted Department of Justice Secretary Raul Gonzales in his statement that UP is a breeding ground of anti-government critics.

According to them, “Gonzales is a bad neighbor, a neighbor who mongers rumor”.

The students held a program inside the university campus as they show placards saying that Gonzales is the secretary of chismis not of Justice. The UP community is known for its critical-minded students especially on the issues that affect the country.

“This prime university is giving a good education that taught us to think critical and we have all the reason to criticize this government after the unjust social and economic policies imposed, its anti-people track record and UP’s decreasing state subsidy”, they supported.

Gonzales early mentioned rash statements on Ms. Susan Roces and former president Corazon Aquino

“Instead of spreading unfound gossip and injudicious statements, what he should do is to be busy himself with pile-loads of work”, they added.

Students told the reporter that they would remain vigilant especially on statements that will mess up the reputation of the university especially the students.

wala lang

2005-07-28T17:21:00.000-07:00

its 8:26am and im somewhere near my school killing time till my 10am class. i was able to watch two of dakota fanning's movies yesterday. she's such a sweetie, i love her now. haha. :) i watched uptown girls and i am sam. both movies made me cry. (like most movies do). she's really good.

i have this assignment for psych10, we have to make a 3-generation genogram, and ive got to admit, its hard considering a lot of my relatives arent here anymore.

anyhoo, im guessing the library is open now so ive got to do something for angel, aira, and arra. ;)

cia0. :)

mihary

2005-07-27T09:01:00.000-07:00

before i hit the sack, my foster sister is in england right now. :) she's studying english and would be there for three weeks. :) ki o tsuke kudasai miharu!:)

exam

2005-07-27T08:48:00.000-07:00

i had my philo11 exam last night and my macroecon exam this morning. two down, lots more to go. i got home around 9 or 10 last night. couldnt remember. i was soooooooooo tired. but i had to finish making my reviewer for macroecon. i slept around 2am and woke up at 5, and after taking a bath, dressing up, breakfast, i studied for macroecon again. i was sooooooo worried that i wouldnt have enough time to study as i only had last night and this morning. grabe. my reviewer? 5 yellow papers back to back. reviewer lang un. but the exam was a lot easier than i expected. although i got confused when i got to the last page cos it looked more like an algeb exam than an economics one. grabe. im drained. my philo11 exam was long but also easier than i expected.

i usually dont study for exams. i like the feeling of studying for exams though. ;) i guess i should study for all my exams now. i got home around 11am and slept until 7pm. haha. didnt have lunch cos i was soooo sleepy.

i dont like how my blog is anymore. its too serious. i blog too much about events and issues, even more than i blog about myself.oh well. im starting driving lessons next week for my psych10 project. still scared to sit behind the wheel, but oh well. so much better if i learn to get past the accident right? its been months. i have a feeling the lessons would be weird. i chose driving instead of foreign lang so as to avoid excessive input to my excuse for a brain. nyahaha. watashi wa namui desu.

oyasoumi nasai.

kaya ko ba?

2005-07-25T03:39:00.000-07:00

terry
7:38 AM Jul 23, 2005 IP 76:255
hi mariel, wag magagalit sa masa kung tumatanggap sila ng 300 sa bawat rally. hindi nila kasalanan yun kahit kailan.

terry
5:09 PM Jul 23, 2005 IP 76:250
wag ka nga mainis, bagkus ikaw yung dapat nasa unahan para mulatin sila mula sa ganoong kalakaran. kaya tayo iskolar ng bayan.

kaya ko ba? napaisip ako sa reaskyon ni kuya terry. kaya ko nga ba? gaano nga ba kalalim ang panguunawa ko sa kalagayan ng maralita? gaano nga ba ako katapang? hanggang kailan ko sila matutulungan at maipagtatanggol? hanggang kailan ko kayang panindigan ang mga pangako ko sa sarili at sa nangangailangan? kaya ko nga bang isakripisyo ang mga kinakailangan para maipagibayo ang paglaban para sa mga nangangailangan?

kaya ko ba? ito ba ang gusto ng Panginoon para sa akin? ito ba ang daang marapat kong tahakin? maisasakatuparan ko ba ang mga plano ko at ng mga magulang ko para sa akin?

marami akong mga plano para sa sarili ko na kung iisipin,malayo na matupad ko kung itutuloy ko ang mga ginagawa ko ngayon. nais kong mabigyan ng buhay na kasing ganda ng tinatamasa ko ngayon ang magiging pamilya ko. salungat sa kagustuhan ng pamilya ko ngayon ang mga pagkilos ko. natural lamang na reaksyon mula sa kanila sapagkat nag-iisa lamang akong babae kung kaya't lahat ng pag-iingat at pagkalinga sa mundo ay binibigay nila sa akin. alam ko na masasaktan ang pamilya ko sakaling ipagpatuloy ko ito. masakit marinig ang isang ina na pinipigilan ang anak na gawin ang siyang gusto nito dahil sa ayaw ng isang ina na masaktan ang kanyang anak.

hanggang kailan ko ito kayang gawin? pag-graduate ko ba sa pamantasan, makakayanan ko kayang isantabi ang mga pangarap ko upang matulungan ang maralita upang maisakatuparan ang kanila namang mga pangarap?

may iba mang paraan upang makatulong ako, may kasiguruhan kaya na mapapanatili ko ang kagustuhan kong makatulong kung napapaligiran na ako ng yaman? may kasiguruhan ba na makatutulong nga talaga ang simpleng pagbigay ng pera? natatakot ako na hindi. natatakot ako na baka makatulong lang ako sa pinansyal na aspeto, ngunit sabay naman ng paglaho ko ang pagkabuti nila. sabi nga nila, mabuti na turuan ang taong mangisda kaysa bigyan lamang ng pagkain.

natatakot ako na baka sakaling tanggapin ko man ang hamon, hindi sapat ang mga gagawin ko upang mapabuti ang estado ng mga nangangailangan. natatakot ako na baka isipin ng karamihan elitista ang pagiisip ko at kailan man ay hindi makakaintindi sa kalagayan ng nangangailangan.

napapaisip na lang ako, dapat nga ba na nasa UP ako? karapat-dapat ba ako sa titulong "iskolar ng bayan"? nabibigyan ko ba ng katarungan ang titulong iyon? naibabalik ko nga ba sa bayan ang siyang binigay nito sa akin- ang pagkakataon na magtagumpay?

pagsulat nga lang nito hirap na hirap na ako magtagalog. naway lumakas pa ang loob ko at lumawak pa ang kaalaman ko upang malaman ang nararapat

wala lang

2005-07-21T07:06:00.000-07:00

im reposting this cos blogger acted up the first time i did. so anyway...

in the next 10-15 years i want to do/accomplish the following:
1. finish college with honors
2. if i stay here: transfer to bs econ, then take mba at aim, then proceed to up law. if i dont, then i study in singapore, work for a while then move to seattle.
3. adopt an aids inflicted or abused child (so angelina jolie-ish)
4. travel with my parents
5. go on an african safari
6. start a foundation
7. visit not less than half of the world's great museums
8. go backpacking across europe
9. move to seattle
10. spoil my family

those are all i could think of right now. ill just add to the list when i think of something new. ;)

2005-07-20T08:50:00.000-07:00

picture reads: CASH COUPON worth Php.300 to be claimed at Makati City Hall

i was thinking of going to ayala last week. if i had known they were giving away 300php then i really shouldve come. haha.seriously though,i hate it when people do these things. cos we fight for what we believe in,and they join us.only to earn 300php and lead people to think everyone's like them. ugh. to hell with ignorance and greed.

note: my ninang was walking to glorietta when she was able to pick this up.

wala lang

2005-07-20T08:04:00.000-07:00

im posting just for the sake of it. im still a bit sick, although on the recovering end now. yey. hmmm.

i hate elections. be it national, local, or even school elections. yeah so maybe the last was just because we got disqualified. but i still hate elections. tons of flyers, propaganda materials given away just to be crumpled or thrown away later on. like how many forests are we using up every election? and even if we do use recycled materials,just imagine how many other resources are wasted. nobody really reads propaganda materials anyway. might as well have given money instead of the prop materials,at least that would be something the voters could use. kidding though. ;) seriously, if people read the prop materials, that would be fine, but the thing is, they hardly do. unless probably they have something for the candidate or whatever. voters information is a must!!! is that so hard to understand??? no matter how many transitions our government undergoes, if people still do not know the reason and rationale of elections, then what is it for??? if someone is elected just because of being a lesser evil, or his/her status, sympathy (vote), who, after elections would disregard his/her constituents then the purpose of elections is defeated! some voters dont even know how malnutrition, mis and overpopulation, illiteracy, and unemployment among others can affect the performance of a country. things that a public official should know and actually do something about. during election time, try asking a voter what the gpoa of her candidate is, most likely he/she wouldnt have anything on her mind except perhaps the usual political crap. but ask him/her rumors about the other candidates, perhaps even about his/her own, for sure you'll have tons of answers. so tell me, are elections even rationale processes? oh yeah maybe. considering how those rumors would greatly affect the performance of the public official.

voter's education

is that too hard to ask??? barangay officials should hold seminars (but who would attend?im pretty sure the marginalized have other crap to prioritize) before elections. ugh. its not even feasible.

forgive my faulty logic, but i guess until someone can prove me otherwise, i just might keep on believing that philippine elections would continue to rival the ringling brothers circus.

sick

2005-07-17T09:05:00.000-07:00

ugh. im sick. i hate it when im sick. takes soooo long for me to get better. ugh.