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welcome to my world, bitch :)
feel free to read, tag, comment, whatever. :)
i know you love me :)
♥ ♥ ♥
the world calls me. and i fear that i am far too involved with it.
7:53 AM
for the past few days ive been three things:: depressed, agitated, and exhausted. im depressed because were disqualified, agitated because one of my college friends was one of those who decided our disqualification but didnt even bother to talk to me, to even console me, on the contrary, after i asked my blockmates to sign the petition, after i delivered a speech on how our candidacy lies on their hands, and after i left the room, she apparently told them a different story. we at iskolar never said we didnt do anything wrong. we admit that we submitted late and we are sorry for that. we are trying to make up for things and she's ruining it for us. she already disqualified us, what more does she want?i never asked for her support because her allegiance is to the other party, and although she WAS a friend, i didnt even ask her to vote for me because we have different views on issues on the university and the nation as well. moreover, i am agitated because we appealed and got turned down thrice. and with every revision of our appeal letter, we toned it from what they were asking. but NO. and so we were left with the signature campaign which we readily did, only for HER to do that. so her + black prop + purokhay (dunno the spelling) + onganos + watiwat = HELL. whats even more agitating is the members from the other party greeting me, calling me by my name, EVEN SMILING, only to say things behind my back. i have friends and classmates who are in the other party but we were always true, for me at least. i have a classmate who is a hardcore supporter of AK but we still talk and its because of RESPECT. i respect her ideologies and i believe that she respects mine, too. and yes, i do bash a lot of their members and it wasnt because i only felt like it. yes, i am bratty but it would take a lot to irritate me. i shut up for as long as i can but when ive reached the threshold i will inexorably and unreservedly say what i want. oh please, SHE should be thankful im not bashing her. and i wont. lastly, i am exhausted. as ive told a lot of people, and written oh-so-many-times, i am emotionally, mentally, and physically drained. add reaction papers that i owe mam gutierrez (i think i still lack 5), kom II term paper, catching up on philo class, and the report for natsci5 (which i had just finished printing *thank God*, but havent done a visual aid for yet).. still, i am thankful for a lot of things.. this was truly an experience i would never forget,but i wouldnt want to go through all of it again.. its too much for me. the juice was still so worth the squeeze. so anyway, imma say thanks to a lot of people..
ISKOLAR (slates, cms, supporters, machinery, etc) -->we are strong. thanks for making me a better, stronger, and braver person than i was a month or so ago.=)
ANGGE, RUTHIE, BORO, BIANX, EDS, EIZ, JONA, ARLENE, JUDEE --> guys, youre one of the reasons why im pushing myself further to the limit.. i dont want to let you guys down.. believe or not, you guys have been one of my sources of strength throughout the campaign.. thanks thanks thanks. although not all of you could have voted for me, the support itself is priceless. thanks.=)
CHINA, MIMZ, GN, BRIJ, ANNA -->outside supporters. cool. lipat na kasi ng faura or p. gil!=D
GOD--> 'nuff said. lahat lahat na. alam ko may dahilan ang lahat ng 'to. alam ko may mas malaki at mabuti ka pang plano para sa akin at sa nakakarami. Lord, i lift to you all the pain in me, everything im doing is for Your greater glory Lord. I know there's a reason for all of this and i accept everything You're giving me, no questions asked Lord. You didnt give me to iskolar to be of help. On the contrary, it, along with the experience, trials, and predicaments, was given to me. You gave them to me Lord, to strengthen me, for me to appreciate even more life's blessings-->my friends and family. Lord this is all for You. only for Your greater glory.=) thank You.
♥XOXO♥