welcome to my world, bitch :)
feel free to read, tag, comment, whatever. :)
i know you love me :)
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welcome to my world, bitch :)
feel free to read, tag, comment, whatever. :)
i know you love me :)
♥ ♥ ♥
the world calls me. and i fear that i am far too involved with it.
5:34 AM
tomorrow is the yfc camp. and much as i want to, i wont be a physical part of it. so many things have been going on in my life that i seemed to have forgotten how close i was to God before. i guess because of the things that i went through during my first yr in college, i had less time for yfc mtgs, and even quit in my parish's org because of a friggin issue. i miss being close to God. and although joining the camp again would seem to solve this, in my case, it doesnt. cos right now, im still do not have the peace of mind i would like to have when i do want to surrender myself to Him again. i still want to be a nun, but so many things are messing up my life right now that i cant seem to find time for mtgs and the like.
to my yfc friends, i do hope you have a fun and meaningful camp. please pray for me. i need your prayers badly. i will pray for you guys, too. and i really hope you guys continue being servants of God, as i hope that i become a servant again.
Lord God, strengthen me as i try to find the silence that ive been longing to have. Heal me Lord, that I may once again take part in your marvelous plan of love for me and for everyone else.
Amen.
10:18 AM
fuck.
i just finished watching friends season10 and guess what,
rachel and ross ended up together.
so much for matthew's "news".
i dont know, i really loved it when Joey told rachel that he loved her before.. ohwell.
today was sooooo nice. i went to up mla to get some requirements for the miyagi thing, and i found out that they couldnt give me the things i had requested for, so bummer right? so i just TRIED to get all of my classcards, but i cant find the stockroom for bio. nyahaha. one AY in up and i still dont know shit. so anyway, i was able to get my nstp and kom2 classcards. so i just lack my envi chem, biodiversity, and anthro classcards..wow.
after that, i took the lrt and mrt to ortigas and walked a lot, and although it was fucking hot, i enjoyed it. i dont know. i guess solitary walks give me a lot of time to think about stuff.
so when i got to mom's office, we waited a bit for ninang vangie before we had lunch at bacolod chicken house, which for the record, is one of my fave restos. so we had the usual pecho and mom and ninang shared kbl. wtf is kbl?? i have got to get in touch with my ilonggo roots. so anyway, we walked a bit and decided to go to metrowalk spa which was actually just in front of bch.
so my mom was asking me whether i wanted to come with them or she gives me moolah and i just have the driver come pick me up. and although the latter was more tempting as i wanted to hit powerbooks in megamall, i decided to come with them. mom and ninang had the foot and back massage while i had the foot massage and foot scrub. im not allowed to have the back massage cos of certain things id rather not share in this blog. ;)
god, the place was to die for. i love the lighting, the chair-slash-bed, the uncabled tv, and of course, the treatment. i am definitely going back there sometime soon, although mom says its cheaper in palm plaza. i dont know yet, im planning to have a body scrub and a longer foot massage next time. but ima hafta be freaking out and going bonkers with deadlines or something else, just so i maximize the experience.
BUT, for those who'd wanna go to a spa with me, lemme know. ;) and please be sure that you're my friend cos it'd be weird not to mention creepy to go to a spa with someone i dont know. ;) btw, it ISNT my treat. nyahaha. enough treating for me. ;)
ive been watching FRIENDS a lot now. matthew and watched the whole season 9 yesterday, followed by without a paddle and spongebob squarepants the movie. we started couch potato-ing around 3, and finished a lil before 1am. with 15 minutes for dinner, of course. ;)
for FRIENDS fans who havent seen the ending yet, im so sorry but i really want have to say this. :RACHEL GOT MARRIED TO JOEY. thats in season10. matthew has seen it so he told me. ima confirm that later when ive seen the whole season10. like when? like 5minutes from now!..hahaha. no sleeping dudes. ;)
i almost forgot what i wanted to blog about in the first place. you know how parents tell you not to do things when they know that you still would? well, mine are like that. like when dad got me a visa card and mom got me a mastercard and told me that those were for "emergencies" only. yeah, right. like i would wait for an emergency to go shopping, right? ;) the funny thing is, when my dad confiscated my visa because of OVERcharging,*note the stress*, my mom confiscated my mastercard too and i wasnt even using it that much. so fine, i was left cardless for a month or so (this happened august2004), but they love their pretty, beautiful, heavenly princess-slash-angel so much that they gave me back my clearcard (mastercard). and i did try not to spend too much. ;) and i guess i was able to cos my mom hasnt said anything in months. so anyway, just last week, my mom was asking me if i wanted another card that i can use for japan, (i was hoping it was AMEX, but im not 18/21 yet so...) and i said i think i have enough. just give me back my visa card. but she said that i might need another one for "emergencies", and that the limits of my other cards were lowered. so i was like, okay whatever. and she called citibank. yadda yadda yadda. my point being: PARENTS NEVER LEARN. and that the term "emergency" is relative sooooo.. you know what i mean. *evil kaugh* ..nyahaha.=)
mom and i were talking about my debut over lunch. she said i could either have the party, or go to seattle, or a car. so i said, how about europe? and she said that was out of the question cos there was no way she was gonna allow me to take a train across europe cos i was planning on doing that. duh, for me, europe isnt europe without prague, rome, vienna, venice, denmark, london, and the list goes on and on. mom said i could only stay in denmark cos we have relatives there and that was it. so no way jose. seattle trip? for two fucking months?? take me to the met, smithsonian, museum of tolerance, and more museums then ima think about it, but if ima be stuck with seattle center AGAIN, doing the grocery in fred meyers, shoeshopping in payless and NINE WEST (wait, nine west is good), then id rather stay home thank you. although, watching a sonics game or wwe match in key arena would be nice.=) GO GO SONICS. nyahaha.=) so the last other choice. i asked her what kind, she said either an altis, vios, or city. sorry mother, but im not into those kind of cars. gimme the crv, or trooper, or bmw x5, OR a porsche boxter then we'll talk. nyahaha. dream on marielieee. seriously, i really want a convertible. which i cant really use considering the lame excuse for air that we have in the metro.
is it me, or was my post too long? ;) haha. ciao everywun! lotsalove.=)
1:41 AM
shoutouts: jinggay-for some reason, i cant tag in your blog so ima write it here nlng.nyehnyeh.=P you have a car na?cool!=) im still trying to regain my courage to sit behind the wheel again.=P and one more thing, yes, they are definitely losers.=P
3:33 AM
i have three friendster accounts.
10:36 PM
my parents are arriving from seattle tonight at 11pm. mom still doesnt know what happened to the car, so im still a wreck. anyway, i was watching tv this morning and someone sang my all-time favorite song- have i told you lately that i love you. i love that song soooo much. yeah, okay im being sentimental again but hey, its my blog.nyahaha.=) seriously, im still confused with what im feeling now. if its HIM or xix still. though i am sure that i still feel something for xix, im not sure if its love or just plain missing. btw, my other favorite song is playing- i will be here. okay, if because of you or if i never knew you plays, im gonna lose it. nyahaha.
8:00 AM
haha, this really cracked me up..=)
12:08 AM
fuck man..
7:08 AM
the pope is dead. i remember hearing this as a joke in the flick eurotrip which was well, really funny. i never thought id hear it for real. eiz forwarded a msg to me at around 5am saying that the pope was dead. i didnt believe it at first. thats how i am, i find the thought of people dying really hard to believe. i dont know, for one reason or another i have this thinking that people are immortal. when the Pope came here in 1995 for the WYD, my mom and i went to naia to see him. when we got home and the delegates who were staying at our house arrived, i promised myself one day i will see him again. i have to. its like one of my personal legends. and even if he has gone to be with God, i still believe that one day i will see him again. i guess its because i grew up seeing the world full of shit that sometimes, the faith i have, its the only thing i can hold on to. and the pope doing as much as he can to reach out to those whose faith has already faltered, to those in need of salvation, to those in need of belief, that was what i needed to comfort me. that somehow someone, even if he doesnt know who i am, is praying for me. there's a certain comfort that it brings.
anyway, my mom and i were talking about my debut the other day, yeah, excited, i know. she told me how my relatives in the states are asking me if i could move my debut to july 2006. no need to reread that. my debut will be 4 months late just so they can come. but you know, im okay with that. for one thing, i wont have to worry about guys for my cotillion de honor. and all my relatives=lotsa moolah. nyahaha.=P but really, even if my debut would be 4 months late, i know it would still be the greatest, grandest debut ever. my mom and i are gonna make sure of that. *wink*. ;)
anyway, i think technology is getting back at me for wanting everything. nyahaha. baba, my laptop has gone bonkers again and wont start, tenten, my palmtop reset so all my files are gone, and pinkie, my iPod lost all its files-thanks to my brother. oh well. its a good thing my palmtop decided to "live anew" when my classes have ended. god knows how ditraught i wouldve been if it reset when i still had classes.
with regards to my driving, my parents didnt get mad. mom just told me that i shouldnt be driving alone when the sun isnt out yet. haha, dont worry mom. i wont be driving for a long long time. im okay sitting in the backseat, listening to my ipod, texting HIM, or sleeping while the driver brings me to where i wunna go. ;)
yey. i have spongebob squarepants on my ipod!happiness!!=)
oh,last one. shun sent me an email saying that i might be staying with them during my stay in Japan. hahahahaha. I AM WISHING ON THAT. ;)
ciao everywun.=)
1 is full.
1 is for people i really know.
and the last, i forgot about.
i forgot all about that account until i saw an email from friendster in one of my email addresses.
and, i have invites.
weird.
anyway, ive been thinking about HIM and me. being bestfriends and all, im thinking maybe im mistaking what im feeling for love-love when really, its just bestfriend-love. i mean, i wouldve gotten over xix if i love-loved HIM right? right? man.
as i was bloghopping, i saw this in mel's page..i revised it a bit to match what im feeling though.nyahaha. btw, its for xix, not HIM.. i know i already gave xix a letter with this before.. i cant really remember if this was it.nyahahaha.
15 things you probably never knew or thought about:
1. at least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
---yeah. your dad, your mom, your sister erika, maybe even joy, and ME.
2. at least 15 people in this world love in some way.
---your dad, your mom, erika, joy, aj, arra, aira, angel, therese, kae, diah, kimpol, erika f, kriztin (?), and another person. im not included..you know why?cos i love you in every way possible.
3. the only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
---remember when i told you that i hated you?well, it wasnt cos i wanted to be like you, it was cos i wanted to be WITH you.
4. a smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they dont like you.
---your smile ALWAYS brings happiness to me thats for sure.
5. everynight, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
---i used to. now, its only once in a while. perhaps its joy.
6. you mean the world to someone.
---you used to mean the world to me, but i grew out of it. again, perhaps its joy.
7. if not for you, someone may not be living.
---maybe your future kids.
8. you are special and unique.
---remember when we used to say we were special cos it was just the two of us who understood each other?.
9. someone you dont even know exists loves you.
---maybe.
10. when you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
---yeah, you let me go and you found HER. that is good, right?='(
11. when you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look. you most probably turned your back on the world.
---well, you thought i left you..but then, it was you who left.=(
12. when you think that you dont have a chance of getting what you want, you probably wont get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably sooner or later, you will get it.
---what was it that you wanted?you couldve told me. then you couldve gotten it.
13. always remember the compliments you received. forget the rude remarks.
---remember me saying that you are THE BEST PERSON IVE MET. and forget when i called you stupid.
14. always tell someone how you feel about them, you will feel much better if you did.
---you shouldve told me before how much you loved me more often. then i wouldnt have doubted you.
15. if you have a great friend, take the time to let them know they are great.
---this should be for aj. cmon, aj was more than a great friend.
i miss you, you know. i would give anything just to hold you close again. pathetic, yes.. but worth it.
Greatest Love of All
"I decided long ago, never to walk with edu manzano..." (I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadow)
Cry by Mandy Moore
"A walk to remember... it was late afternoon! (I'll always remember, it was late afternoon)
All My Life by K-c and Jojo
"supposed to be you're like my mother, supposed to be you're like my
sister"(close to me you're like my mother... close to me you're like my sister)
Where's the Love
"People killing, people flying, children hurt and living, crying..."
(People killing, people
dying; children hurt and you hear them crying)
Leaving on a jet plane by John Denver
"so kiss me and SMAFFLE me... (so kiss me and smile for me...)
Usher & Alicia's My Boo
"It started when we were younger you were NINE.."(It started when we
were younger you were mine)
If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys
"some people want TAMBOURINES.." (diamond rings)
Britney's Baby One More Time
"My ONLY NEST is killing me... and I........(My loneliness....)
Thumbthumping (Chumbawumba)
"I get knocked down by an elephant, my mommas's gonna bring me down... " I get knocked down, but I get up again...)
Crush by Jennifer Paige
"i-splash, a little crush.." (it's just.. a little crush..)
Red Hot's Californication -
"Viva Californication...." (Dream of Californication...)
No scrubs, TLC
"A scrub is a guy who thinks he's fine but is also known as a BUS STOP"
(buster)
Waterfalls by TLC
"Don't go JASON waterfalls..." (Chasin')
John Mayer
"You're ALICE IN WONDERLAND... You're ALICE IN WONDERLAND I'll use my hands"(Body is a wonderland)
Baa Baa Black Sheep
"Baa baa black sheep, heavy on the road..."
With A Smile by Eraserheads
"lift ur HAND.. baby dont be scared.. of the things that could go wrong long the way.. (HEAD!!!)
Wag Na Wag Mong Sasabihin by Kitchie Nadal
"maaaaaaaaaag... , magdamag mong sasabihin........"
two-trick pony by sandwich
"i have been waiting for you all night under the glow of INSECENT
LIGHT"(...under the glow of YOUR SATELLITE)
On Bended Knees by Boyz II Men
"Oh God give me the reason, I'M DOWN...ABANDON ME..."(I'm down on bended knee)
Red Hot's Zephyr Song
"Fly away on my CELLPHONE...I feel it more than ever" (Fly away on my zephyr, I feel it more than ever)
AND FINALLY....
Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You by Glenn Medeiros
"Nothing's gonna change my love for you... you know NAMAN MY LOVE how much I love you..."
NABANGGA KO UNG ALTIS.
sira ung lik0d. fucker.
Pope John Paul II has gone back to his home in heaven.
may God bless his soul and may his successor continue his works.
amen.