my parents are arriving from seattle tonight at 11pm. mom still doesnt know what happened to the car, so im still a wreck. anyway, i was watching tv this morning and someone sang my all-time favorite song- have i told you lately that i love you. i love that song soooo much. yeah, okay im being sentimental again but hey, its my blog.nyahaha.=) seriously, im still confused with what im feeling now. if its HIM or xix still. though i am sure that i still feel something for xix, im not sure if its love or just plain missing. btw, my other favorite song is playing- i will be here. okay, if because of you or if i never knew you plays, im gonna lose it. nyahaha.
anyway, ive been thinking about HIM and me. being bestfriends and all, im thinking maybe im mistaking what im feeling for love-love when really, its just bestfriend-love. i mean, i wouldve gotten over xix if i love-loved HIM right? right? man.
as i was bloghopping, i saw this in mel's page..i revised it a bit to match what im feeling though.nyahaha. btw, its for xix, not HIM.. i know i already gave xix a letter with this before.. i cant really remember if this was it.nyahahaha.
15 things you probably never knew or thought about:
1. at least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
---yeah. your dad, your mom, your sister erika, maybe even joy, and ME.
2. at least 15 people in this world love in some way.
---your dad, your mom, erika, joy, aj, arra, aira, angel, therese, kae, diah, kimpol, erika f, kriztin (?), and another person. im not included..you know why?cos i love you in every way possible.
3. the only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
---remember when i told you that i hated you?well, it wasnt cos i wanted to be like you, it was cos i wanted to be WITH you.
4. a smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they dont like you.
---your smile ALWAYS brings happiness to me thats for sure.
5. everynight, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
---i used to. now, its only once in a while. perhaps its joy.
6. you mean the world to someone.
---you used to mean the world to me, but i grew out of it. again, perhaps its joy.
7. if not for you, someone may not be living.
---maybe your future kids.
8. you are special and unique.
---remember when we used to say we were special cos it was just the two of us who understood each other?.
9. someone you dont even know exists loves you.
---maybe.
10. when you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
---yeah, you let me go and you found HER. that is good, right?='(
11. when you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look. you most probably turned your back on the world.
---well, you thought i left you..but then, it was you who left.=(
12. when you think that you dont have a chance of getting what you want, you probably wont get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably sooner or later, you will get it.
---what was it that you wanted?you couldve told me. then you couldve gotten it.
13. always remember the compliments you received. forget the rude remarks.
---remember me saying that you are THE BEST PERSON IVE MET. and forget when i called you stupid.
14. always tell someone how you feel about them, you will feel much better if you did.
---you shouldve told me before how much you loved me more often. then i wouldnt have doubted you.
15. if you have a great friend, take the time to let them know they are great.
---this should be for aj. cmon, aj was more than a great friend.
i miss you, you know. i would give anything just to hold you close again. pathetic, yes.. but worth it.