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mariel
DELTAN by choice.2k6-A.
paulinian. iskolar ng bayan.wai guo xue sheng.
prinsesa.
19. *cringe* (omg. im a fossil).
purple.pink.red.
iPod.n91.edictionary.laptop.
liz claiborne.nine west.RL.victoria's secret.kennethcole
passion.SERVICE.commitment.
loyalty.professionalism.integrity.
accountability.transparency.veritas.
brods.sisses.UP friends.
china|pam|mimi|kat|anna|jean|JOY :).
brickwall.manila|tagaytay|seattle|sendai.boracay.
roadtrips. soundtrips. movie marathons.
travel junkie.
dancing.drinking.smoking.
sambuca. cuervo. smirnoff.
PINK ROSES.
mess with my family, ni si le.(read: YOURE DEAD.)
political economics.third world studies.
intellectual and ideological discussions.
KAMULATAN.
gandhi.

the world calls me. and i fear that i am far too involved with it.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

4:42 AM

♥XOXO♥

Sunday, February 20, 2005

4:52 AM

i dont really know why my layout is like this. i guess im just confused. but im ok now. i took some time to figure things out.
1. i am really ok now with just being bestfriends with him.
2. people around me are growing up and yet im still stuck in the same phase.
3. i should move on for real.
4. i should forgive for real.
5. i am seriously TIRED. i am physically, mentally, emotionally drained. not even my being grounded this weekend helped. i am still catching up on as much sleep as possible.
6. veronika decides to die had a lot to do with everything i had just realized.
7. i definitely should have followed my heart and not cared about what people thought.
8. but its too late and i should #3.
9. i should try to be genuinely happy from now on. no more bitterness, no more regrets. heck, thats why i made a new blog right?

anyway, id like to say stuff to a lot of people..
iskolar-->sorry for being irresponsible. and i mean SORRY. i cant really do much when mom has decided already. were not in good terms anymore so PLEASE bear with me. i am doing my best. i really am. please do understand.

china, pam, mae, mimi, anna, kat-->guys, i miss you terribly. please lemme know when we can go hang out and do stuff again..

pam-->kambal!!=) bday mo na on the 23rd!!=) happy birthday!=) i love you kambal!=)

cm's-->bianx, thanks for the support and for helping me with the slogans.. jen&miko, thanks for the company.. mawi, thanks for the caricature i love it.=).. lara&ivy, for wearing the hairband with pride girls!haha we should definitely go back to tutuban..imma hafta buy shirts..=S

**change topic**
yeah, so my bday's coming up and ive decided to make it simple this year cos i already had a party last year and ima have my debut next yr.. so this year, its either gonna be an outreach thing for our nstp OR movies/dvds+pizza+cousins+bestfriends..=) i really like the last idea but im not sure if its doable considering our schedules.. 2 weeks to go!=)

♥XOXO♥

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

7:04 AM

3 weeks na lang birthday ko na..
march 5 un ha..
ndi march 4.. ndi march 6..
ang bumati skn sa day other than march 5 pangit..
haha.
for sure mamimiss ko n2man ang tipol..
coz sa birthday ko,
wala ng magplaplano na ndi ako b2tiin the whole day (cla meh..=D)..
wala ng magte2xt sken kht ndi ko kclose pra btiin ako (lower levels)..
wala ng hugs..
wala ng letters..
hay.
sana sa birthday ko maalala pko ng tropa ko..
hoy, asan na ba kayo?

♥XOXO♥

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

8:49 AM

a few minutes ago, i said something i never i thought i would in my entire life.

"lmo uzzi, wala nko sa mood mgjoke forever.."

which, became a deal right after.. ewan ko, siguro nga totoo na hindi ako makakatagal ng nagmumuktol... siguro rn kaya so many dont take me seriously... OH WELL.. ok na ung ganito.. at least, kung depressed ako, depressed ako.. hindi nagprepretend na wow may joke nanaman ako kahit na ako mismong nagjojoke hindi natatawa nagprepretend na lang na sige na nakakatawa na.. ewan.

♥XOXO♥

naisip ko lang.. ang dami pa lang kawawang intsik no?
kasi kung ikaw ay..

1. cool na intsik --> chong go
2. NPA na instik --> Ka Bah You
3. intsik na nalunod sa swimming pool --> Ang Lah Lim
4. intsik na wala sa uso --> Bhud Uy
5. sipuning intsik --> Ah tzu
6. bayolenteng intsik --> Si Fa
7. vulgar na intsik --> Tang Na Yeo
8. maingay na intsik --> Ding Dong
9. baliw na intsik --> Ay Loh Xang
10. gutom na intsik --> Bee Tin

whaha. la lang, c bianx ksi ngpost ng about sa chinese.. so eto.. haha. this is what boredom gets you.=D

♥XOXO♥

Article 14 Section 5 of the 1987 Philippine Constitution mandates that education should be given the highest priority in the system of budget allocation. To quote:

“The State shall assign the highest budgetary priority to education and ensure that teaching will attract and retain its rightful share of the best available talents through adequate remuneration and other means of job satisfaction and fulfillment.”

♥XOXO♥

Monday, February 14, 2005
8:59 AM

this post is just to react to jen's post about the UP budget cut.. this is pop-activism. and i do hope it goes somewhere..

we iskolars ng bayan are yet again facing one of the consequences of the unwise judgments of those in power-->ANOTHER AND EVEN BIGGER BUDGET CUT. some say its because the country doesnt have any budget. please, spare us lousy excuses and actually put truth in the crap you say. the problem isnt in the budget per se, but its allocation. it is stated in the constitution that education should be the priority but obviously that isnt the case now. and yes, aquino did pass a law providing that debts should be prioritized too. FINE, i say. so theyre both constitutional. but to prioritize one over the other at a very large margin is questionable. and to think that the country wouldnt really benefit from it except that if we get to pay the interest then we can loan AGAIN then cut even more off the education and basic services budgets just to pay for the interest AGAIN so that we can loan AGAIN and i bet you get the picture now.

some are saying that its okay if UP raises its tuition because supposedly, more students are from the middle class and up.. question is, WHY? a)parents from the provinces couldnt afford to send their kids to manila to study college. b)some would rather work. c)and this is what most people say--because the quality of education from private schools is supposedly higher. but really, its irrelevant. because whether we have the capacity or not to pay for the actual cost of UP education is out of the question simply because it is our right. its constitutional. i dont get it why we are having such a hard time to assert something which is legally ours-->the right to quality education.

now, i wont be saying these things if the money would be rechanneled to other social services like health, sanitation, and the like. but to merely pay the interest of our debt? i really think its too much. i mean, if you cant NOT cut off from the budget, dont make it 357 million pesos!!!!!!!!!!! tangina, pano na yung may mga tatay na minimum lang ang kinikita?!tapos gagawin pang 12% ang VAT?!

sorry, but i really believe what we have is a hateful system. education ang pinaguusapan dito, pare. there shouldnt be a debate as to which is more important between education or debt servicing. sayang, ang daming kabataang makakapagpaganda lalo ng bansa natin. ang dami sanang kabataang makakaalis ng bulok na sistemang ito sa bansa natin. pero paano na? WALA NA. kinuha nyo na ang karapatan nila. inagaw nyo sa kanila. pano kayo nakakatulog sa gabi, ha?!

♥XOXO♥

ive always hated valentines day.. its not because i dont have someone to share it with, its cos i find it passe and irritating at the same time that people are being their best at this one day and just well, normal for the other 364 days.. i mean, why cant people be sweet, and nice, and romantic more often? why does it have to be on a specific date? cant it be spontaneous? what if you thought of something really cool and sweet but its only november?

either way, i still find couples HHWWPSSP adorable.=) lalo na old couples..=)

btw, kuya armand read my palm at gary's this afternoon.. it was cool.. my mental capacity would diminish when i get old, ive a long lifeline, and ima have a happy marriage.. kinda freaked out when he got into the part of my mental capacity diminishing in the later years.. and he said i was gonna have a midlife crisis.. and an enemy i had in my younger years would be my friend then.. wow, cool noh?.. ive always loved fortune telling, palmreading and those stuff.. i dont really believe in them.. but it amuses me how one story actually coincides with the others.. freaky huh?

♥XOXO♥

Sunday, February 13, 2005
9:08 AM

adik sa 'yo"
awit sa akin
nilang sawa na sa aking mga kuwentong marathon
tungkol sa 'yo
at sa ligayang
iyong hatid sa aking buhay
tuloy ang bida sa isipan ko'y ikaw
~sa umaga't sa gabi
sa bawa't minutong lumilipas
hinahanap-hanap kita
hinahanap-hanap kita
sa isip at panaginip
bawa't pagpihit ng tadhana
hinahanap-hanap kita
sabik sa 'yo
kahit maghapon
na tayong magkasama parang telesine
ang ating anding
hatid sa bahay n'yo
sabay goodnight, sabay may kiss
sabay bye-bye
repeat ~
sa school sa flag ceremony
hanggang uwian araw-araw
hinahanap-hanap kita
hinahanap-hanap kita
at kahit na magka-anak kayo't
magkatuluyan balang araw
hahanap-hanapin ka
hahanap-hanapin ka

♥XOXO♥

i really find it boring. maybe its cos im still a kid, or just because. either way i still find it WAY boring. but yeah, still sucks that im spending valentines day with monster->my puppy.

mom bought it for me yesterday morning.. when she woke me up, she said "mariel, someone's looking for you".. and i was still groggy when i went to the living room and mom was saying "whered he go?!" and she was looking for someone/something, which really freaked me out cos i thought shes gone bonkers.. so i started looking around for someone/something which i really didnt know then and THEN i saw this cute lil puppy beside my mom's display cabinet which made it all the more unbelievable cos she actually let the puppy stay inside the house. i named him monster.=)

its hard taking care of him, cos until now he's still up and running around the living room which doesnt let me sleep too cos i hafta look out for mom's stuff, she'll blow her top if monster does something to her stuff.. its fun tho, cos ive been asking for a dog for the longest time..and yeah, tho it sucks that im spending vday with him, its still perfect for me..

THANKS MOM!!!=) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!=)

♥XOXO♥

Friday, February 11, 2005
3:05 AM

♥XOXO♥

Thursday, February 10, 2005
7:38 AM

sa mga bestfriends ko.. sobrang miss ko na kayo.. guys, i need you right now.. i miss having you guys to cry to everytime i get hurt.. ang lalayo na kasi natin eh.. ang hirap.. =( sobrang namimiss ko na kayo.. klngan ko hugs nyo.. klngan ko comfort nyo.. klngan ko kayo..

♥XOXO♥

tangina
ayoko na. tama na. pagod na ako. tangina, may kahahantungan pa ba ang lahat ng 't0? pagod na ako. pagod na pagod. ayoko ng magpretend na ok ako, ayoko ng magpretend na masaya ako and kunteto ako na bestfriends tayo kasi hindi.tangina, mahal kita, mahirap bang intindihin yon?!

♥XOXO♥

Mga matang pinatanda ng hirap ay dahas
Kutis na pinapurok ng tadhana
Sakit na matagal nang ninanais ilabas
Ilang taon na, ito pa rin ang pamana.

Talulot na pilit pinatuyo ng panahon
Luhang naubos sa paghintay
Hirap na sa kaluluwa'y bumaon
Pagibig na walang humpay.

Kaluluwa't pagkatao'y walang saplot
buhay- hubo't hubad, pinagmamasdan.
Tagumpay na patuloy na nauudlot
Walang pigtasan, walang baklasan.

Nakaankla ang pangarap
Walang pinatutunguhan
Kinabukasa'y pulos paghihirap
Along hindi nais ngunit kailangang sabayan.

Nakatitig sa karimlan
Utak biglang nablanko
Nakatanaw sa kalawakan
Puso ay nabigo.

Tila kerubim ang tapyas ng mukha
Isang biyaya mula sa alapaap
Walang mintis ang ganda kahit bahagya
Ngunit isa lamang pangarap.

Mahalimuyak ang belo ng kadiliman
Samyong nananatili hanggang sa paglubog ng araw
Ningning ng bintana ng kaluluwa.
Siya lang, wala ng iba.

Minsa'y napapaisip ito ba'y totoo
Init ng apoy hindi dapat gawing loko
Ito lamang ba'y simpleng laru-laro
O dalawang nilalang sa pag-ibig ay nabilanggo?

♥XOXO♥

Wednesday, February 09, 2005
7:42 AM

ive been trying to blog for the past 4 days.. and really, I CANT THINK OF ANYTHING TO BLOG ABOUT. no, make that i dont know how to organize my thoughts and really say what i want to say. seriously, I CANT WRITE ANYMORE. no, not write anything good, nice, great, sensible.
i meant I CANT WRITE ANYMORE. i want to bring back the writer in me, the literista in me, the poet in me.. writing is my entire being, my passion, my soul. i am a poet. i am a writer. God, please. bring back my soul to me.

♥XOXO♥

Tuesday, February 08, 2005
6:29 AM

joke muna..=)

kuba: ate, ate, magaaral ako ng karate.. tinutukso kasi nila ako ng kuba eh..
*aral karate*
ate: o, tinutukso ka pa din ba nilang kuba?
kuba: hindi na.. ninja turtles na!

nyeeehhh.=)

______________________________________________
if you think they're true, pass it on. If you
don't? Pass it on anyway, maybe someone
else will think it is.

1. When a girl says she's sad, but she isn't
crying, it means she's crying in her heart.
-->awww. yeah. =(

2. When she ignores you after you've done
something wrong, it's best to give her some
time to cool down before touching her heart
with an apology. (right on!)
-->either way id stll forgve you.=)

3. A girl can't find anything to hate about
the guy she loves (which is why it is so hard
for her to 'get over him' after the relationship's
over.)
-->haha. i found a lot to hate BUT learned to love it..

4. If a girl loves a guy, he will always be on
her mind every minute of the day, even
though she flirts with other guys.
-->hmmmm.. NO.. cos there's philo1.. anthro1.. econ11..

5. When the guy she likes smiles and
stares deep into her eyes, she will melt.
-->hmmmm.. YEAH.

6. A girl likes to hear compliments, but
usually is not sure how to react to them.
-->yeah..

7. When a particular guy flirts with a girl
very often, a girl would start thinking the guy
likes her. So if you treat a girl just as a friend,
go easy on the smiles and stares ok? (here
here!)
-->we d0? i dont..=)

8. If you don't like a girl who likes you,
break it to her gently.
-->hmmmm..

9. If a girl starts avoiding you after you
reject her, leave her alone for a while. If
you still treat her as a friend, talk to her.
-->this is good

10. Girls enjoy talking about what they
feel. Music, poetry, drawings and writing are
ways of expressing themselves (which
explains why most girls like writing journals).
-->this is so true.=)

11. Never tell a girl that she is useless in
anyway.
-->never tell ANYONE he/she is useless in any way.

12. Being too serious can turn a girl off.
(AMEN!)
-->hmmmm.. yEah.

13. When the guy she likes calls her for the
first time, the girl may act uninterested
duringthe call. But as soon as the phone is
back onthe hook, she will whoop with joy and
immediately start telephoning her friends
to spread the news.
-->haha, OMG. *guilty*.

14. A smile means a lot to a girl.
-->definitely

15. If you like a girl, try making friends
with her first. Let her get to know you.
-->hmmmm..right.

16. If a girl says she can't go out with you
because she has to study, leave.
-->WTF?! DONT. help her..=)

17. But if she still calls you or expects a
call from you, stay.
-->definitely

18. Don't try to guess a girl's feelings. Ask
her. (so true... we don't have the ability guess
a guy's feelings!!! we'd rather hear it from the
person..)
-->at least try.

19. Hearing the words "I love you" is a
great reassurance to a girl that she is
beautiful.
-->more than beautiful

20. After a girl falls in love with a guy,
she'll wonder why she never noticed him
before.
-->haha, yeah..=)

21. If you need tips on how to flirt with a
girl,read romance stories.
-->not always

22. When class pictures come out, a girl
would first check who is standing next to her
crush before actually looking at herself. (=
-->i wouldnt know

23. A girl's ex-crush will always be in her
memory, but the guy she loves now stays in
her heart.
--> yeah yeah yeah.=)

24. Girls love having fun!
-->right

25. A simple 'Hi' can brighten a girl's day.
-->depends on who its from

26. A girl's best friends usually know best
what she is feeling and going through.
-->ask them..=)

27. Girls hate it when a guy pays attention to
them just to get close to their 'prettier' friend.
-->DOI.

28. Love means devotion, caring and
happiness to a girl, in that order.
-->perseverance, sacrifice, happiness.

29. Some girls care about looks, some
care about brains, but ALL girls want a guy
who will love and care for them.
-->THIS IS SO RIGHT.
30. Girls want nothing more than to feel
loved...

♥XOXO♥

Saturday, February 05, 2005
7:09 AM

welcome to my new world.
new life.
new hopes.
new friends.
new dreams.

no more bitterness, no more regrets.

no more sadness, all those ive to forget.

life is good, ive passed up on a lot

life is good, ive given up much.

this time its better,

this time is new,

this time its real,

this one's for me.

this one's for you.

no more dreams of togetherness

no more tears of sadness

no more sleepless nights of wonder

ive got to move on, this life is better.

i cant hold on to promises

i cant hold on to fantasies

i cant hold on this much longer.

and then you talk to me and my old blog lives again.

pathetic.

♥XOXO♥

♥move on♥

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