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welcome to my world, bitch :)
feel free to read, tag, comment, whatever. :)
i know you love me :)
♥ ♥ ♥
the world calls me. and i fear that i am far too involved with it.
6:26 AM
its been days since i posted a real entry. i dont know, for some reason, i couldnt find anything worthy of a blog entry. since i got back, my days have been monotonous. i sleep and wake up late, go online, watch dvds or friends reruns, go online again, then watch tv again (meteor garden or the sappy koreanovelas my mom watches that i dont really follow), go online again, watch tv again (comedy central), text people who'd still be awake at that time, then force myself to sleep. except for the days i went to up and to ortigas, ive been living a nonexistent life. another way to say it? i dont have a life. gawd. i feel like ive seen all websites there are about randy orton, f4, and chad michael murray. i check my 3 email address more than 2x a day, and i also check the gagos' email address, my friendster accounts, the friendster accounts i manage, and this blog. im too lazy to update my deviant art so dont bother asking me about that. ive felt this empty and worthless before, and im afraid its cos of the same reason.
only 17 days til june19. yup, couldve been two years now. instead, they're turning a year on june28. dont get me wrong, im over the whole thing. im even happy for hal. i dont know, i guess i just feel alone. its weird. i wake up seeing a lot of people in our house, i wake up to tons of sms, and yet whenever i wake up, i feel like i couldnt be more alone. yuck, drama. but this is who i am. a drama queen.
just a few days ago though, i posted about how i shouldnt fall for him. i couldnt be more right. i shouldnt be. not only does my bestfriend disagree, he's totally wrong for me. and i feel good about that. ive finally made a decision and stood up to it.
luigi, a co-gago, and i text a lot in the wee hours of the morning. its weird how much you learn while local channels arent available anymore. we text about me and my bestfriend, and about the other gagos, love, college, family, practically everything we could think of. it just felt nice to have someone affirm what i told myself when i needed it the most.
im so bored. its my lola's bday tomorrow. happy birthday lola! thats why i cant go with the gagos. sad sad life.
i might transfer to diliman next sem. okay, ive been saying this forever and havent really done anything about it, but this time, i will. either business econ, linguistics, or psych. psych is hard to get into though. oh well.
is it obvious that my thoughts are just all around me? i havent got the time and the patience to sort them all out. I NEED SCHOOL. i have got to get a life. oyasoumi nasai.
♥XOXO♥