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welcome to my world, bitch :)
feel free to read, tag, comment, whatever. :)
i know you love me :)
♥ ♥ ♥
the world calls me. and i fear that i am far too involved with it.
5:05 AM
when you love someone, do you hold on or do you let go?
my friend and i were talking about her ex who is on the way to insanity. psycho girlfriend material. errr, make it a psycho ex girlfriend material. my friend broke up with her cos she just wasnt happy anymore, and she wanted to stick to her principles, she wanted a life. its like how any same sex relationship goes, both fall inlove and to some extent, dream of ever afters. but sometimes, it comes to a point that one would already be ready to give more than what they unofficially agreed upon. its like an unsaid rule in same sex relationships that sooner or later, things would end (am i right? correct me if im not). but sometimes, one would reach a point wherein one is willing to invest in something more than what they originally had in mind. so what is it then? should you hold on or let go?
i think it also goes for any relationship for that matter. when one reaches the point wherein he/she is willing to have something more than he/she originally wanted, and the other one isnt, should there be holding on or letting go?
this is what happened, A is my friend,B is her ex. A and B were together for a sem or so. there is love, of course, but along the way, A realized she just wasnt happy anymore. on the contrary, B was planning her ever after with A. but the problem is, A doesnt want an ever after with B. its like if A wants a song on a cd, B wants the whole cd. its all or nothing. which in their case is highly inapplicable. for A, their relationship is just something for this certain point in time. with all the pressure and toxicity from school and family and whatever, their relationship was meant to neutralize all that. but it didnt go the way it was planned. for A, its like their relationship is part of any teenager's life full of experimenting and such. but for B, its quite the opposite. B was already planning their life together, with a beachhouse and stuff. A just wasnt ready for that. A wasnt ready to have her future planned out in a way that was restricted to who she is presently with and what she presently has. she wants growth, which B just seems to not understand. B was planning their life together as if they were the only people on earth, as if they didnt have their own families and their own lives, as if they didnt have responsibilities. B was planning their lives as if things wouldnt change, but the thing is, things do change. its inevitable, its a constant, its a given. and the challenge is to grow from that change.
but instead of growing, you know what B does? she goes all psychotic and crazy, wanting to kill herself, be swallowed by the world, and whatnot. and she wants A to pity her. i mean cmon, why would you want someone to pity you? she wants A to stay even if its just out of pity. i mean really, dont you deserve someone better?! now she's bothering just about everyone close to A to help her patch things up, which only drives A farther and farther away cos its already scaring her.
and i dont know how to help A. does anyone know? hahah. ang gulo ng post ko. but the main thing im pointing at is that:
the world is changing right before your eyes
and its up to you to make that change a better one for you. its like when youve hit rock bottom and youre burrying yourself even farther down instead of climbing up like sadako. haha. ewan! ang gulo gulo na ng mundo, pati ba naman ganito kailangang problemahin?
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